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I hate my life and I wake up each morning thinking about killself

Killself and my concrete plan to carry out same is literally...
shimmering kitchen
  04/21/26
I usually don’t think about killself until about 10am ...
Offensive Infuriating Coldplay Fan Station
  04/21/26
Wow that's dark. I usually think killself first thing in the...
shimmering kitchen
  04/21/26
Isn't your wife significantly thinner than you?
razzle dragon
  04/21/26
Yes, I am severely overweight. I eat because I hate myself, ...
shimmering kitchen
  04/21/26
so how is your wife fat?
razzle dragon
  04/21/26
You haven't seen her?
blue hateful chapel
  04/22/26
I don't think she's fat, is she? Or maybe she just looks ski...
razzle dragon
  04/22/26
you need Angine de Poitrine, post haste /_\
navy lascivious pozpig
  04/21/26
moar liek Vagine de Vagine
Haunting stock car
  04/21/26
Are there things that you used to enjoy or find rewarding bu...
razzmatazz medicated generalized bond mother
  04/21/26
I think there was a time that I enjoyed going outside or tal...
shimmering kitchen
  04/21/26
I definitely think you should explore different hobbies and ...
razzmatazz medicated generalized bond mother
  04/21/26
I think my posting predates any marital animosity
shimmering kitchen
  04/21/26
According to AI this is normal. Self awareness peaks in the ...
shimmering kitchen
  04/21/26
can't trust a man that doesnt think about killing himslef al...
very tactful athletic conference school cafeteria
  04/21/26
Yeah, and as pointed out in the OP it isn’t literally ...
shimmering kitchen
  04/21/26
i think about killing myself for probably a good 8-15% of my...
very tactful athletic conference school cafeteria
  04/21/26
Interesting. Is there any external stimulus that tends to br...
shimmering kitchen
  04/21/26
most of the day it just will start out of nowhere and then l...
very tactful athletic conference school cafeteria
  04/21/26
i was drifting off to sleep on the couch this evening and ha...
razzle dragon
  04/21/26
sounds rational, but that’s actually a high rate of fa...
shimmering kitchen
  04/21/26
honestly i think thats totally normal and jsut masculine aut...
very tactful athletic conference school cafeteria
  04/21/26
this is normal
Haunting stock car
  04/22/26
ty
very tactful athletic conference school cafeteria
  04/22/26
thee you on a dark nite tp
Puce Kink-friendly Heaven Blood Rage
  04/21/26
You'll be fine bud. Might want to work on the diet is all.
Marvelous Office
  04/21/26
You'd never maek it in L.A.
green corn cake
  04/21/26
Why not, brother?
shimmering kitchen
  04/21/26
I'm going to level with you. You're in hell, and hell is an...
blue hateful chapel
  04/22/26
...
Talking buck-toothed abode national security agency
  04/22/26
...
blue hateful chapel
  04/22/26
it's time for us to hike the tour de mont blanc. this will ...
Erotic mood base
  04/22/26
Motherfucker, do you think he has the money for that!?
blue hateful chapel
  04/22/26
Let's go, brother.
shimmering kitchen
  04/22/26
You will not be depressed with the tour de Mont Blanc on you...
Erotic mood base
  04/23/26
you're killing me, buster
aquamarine exciting half-breed church
  04/22/26
Maybe take up fishing. Its pretty underrated.
Painfully honest macaca parlour
  04/22/26
Motherfucker, do you think he has the money for that!?
razzle dragon
  04/22/26
...
blue hateful chapel
  04/22/26
Happened again this morning, brothers.
shimmering kitchen
  04/23/26
Like every other element of your life, you'll do nothing abo...
blue hateful chapel
  04/23/26
suicide is pretty cowardly and will fuck up your kids a lot....
Sapphire Galvanic Locale Selfie
  04/23/26
wow tp
Frutiger Aero
  04/23/26
Seriously go fishing. Its simple. But really fun. Ancient si...
Senior Ethics Official
  04/23/26
Sorry, uhh, "Luke." We let you down ITT. Can you ...
blue hateful chapel
  04/23/26
i think you're a real piece of shit for criticizing your wif...
Translucent Shitlib Karate
  04/23/26
Thank you for your honest assessment of my faults, brother. ...
luke the drifter
  04/23/26


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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:13 PM
Author: shimmering kitchen

Killself and my concrete plan to carry out same is literally the first thought I have each morning. No cap.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833018)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:17 PM
Author: Offensive Infuriating Coldplay Fan Station

I usually don’t think about killself until about 10am but once I do it’s all I think about for the rest of the day

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833031)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:20 PM
Author: shimmering kitchen

Wow that's dark. I usually think killself first thing in the morning, then things improve, and it returns when I'm trying to handle my kids in the evening time. I try not talking to my wife as we go to bed.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833035)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 9:45 PM
Author: razzle dragon

Isn't your wife significantly thinner than you?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833243)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:10 PM
Author: shimmering kitchen

Yes, I am severely overweight. I eat because I hate myself, and I hate myself because I eat. It’s a vicious cycle.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833295)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:47 PM
Author: razzle dragon

so how is your wife fat?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833397)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 9:37 AM
Author: blue hateful chapel

You haven't seen her?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833861)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 1:38 PM
Author: razzle dragon

I don't think she's fat, is she? Or maybe she just looks skinny compared to disco

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49834362)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:19 PM
Author: navy lascivious pozpig

you need Angine de Poitrine, post haste /_\

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833034)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:25 PM
Author: Haunting stock car

moar liek Vagine de Vagine

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833047)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:20 PM
Author: razzmatazz medicated generalized bond mother

Are there things that you used to enjoy or find rewarding but no longer do? Or have you never had anything to look forward to?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833036)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:25 PM
Author: shimmering kitchen

I think there was a time that I enjoyed going outside or talking to my wife. I don't do either anymore. I just stay inside all day. I remember there was a time when I was interested in home improvement projects. Lol at that now. There was a time when I wanted to play catch with my sons, but they hate the game and so I came to hate it too. There were some other hobbies too that I absolutely cannot stand now. I would say on a scale of 1 to Anhedonia, I'm safely in the "A zone."

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833048)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 9:05 PM
Author: razzmatazz medicated generalized bond mother

I definitely think you should explore different hobbies and see if something brings you joy.

Were you already poasting before you started hating your wife? It's possible XO misogyny is exacerbating your resentment or even caused it in the first place.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833166)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 9:43 PM
Author: shimmering kitchen

I think my posting predates any marital animosity

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833237)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 9:02 PM
Author: shimmering kitchen

According to AI this is normal. Self awareness peaks in the morning and in the evening.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833157)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:18 PM
Author: very tactful athletic conference school cafeteria

can't trust a man that doesnt think about killing himslef all the time tbh

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833319)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:23 PM
Author: shimmering kitchen

Yeah, and as pointed out in the OP it isn’t literally all the time, it’s just first thing in the mornings and again in the evenings.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833338)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:26 PM
Author: very tactful athletic conference school cafeteria

i think about killing myself for probably a good 8-15% of my waking day and I'm over 6ft and have a huge dick with a cr life

when im not thinkig of kms i think about harming others for at least another 15-20% of the day

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833347)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:29 PM
Author: shimmering kitchen

Interesting. Is there any external stimulus that tends to bring up kms for you? Or does it just hit like a tornado in the springtime, up out of nowhere, but with an all encompassing structure leveling fury that cannot be ignored?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833353)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:49 PM
Author: very tactful athletic conference school cafeteria

most of the day it just will start out of nowhere and then loop from there

if homidical theres usually a extrnal stimuli

like last night i had a dream about knocking these 2 people that did something to me clean the fuck out in a mall and slamming htem into a wall or something and then my dad came out of nowhere and was like chill out god is goign to fuck them for you or something

so actually its in my nonwaking life now too

just the senselessness and pontlessness of it all and al this toil for nothing that i see is a huge scam and that no one cares and wont lead to my joy or more young hole etc and how i try to do things righteoulsy but it just seems so dumb to not be a piece of shit and it will start it up again

i think most comes from unfulfilled desires, unmet needs and perceived inustices directed inwardly

seems almost rational tbh

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833404)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:50 PM
Author: razzle dragon

i was drifting off to sleep on the couch this evening and had a vivid thought of just grabbing the sharpest kitchen knife and jabbing it straight into my neck

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833408)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:52 PM
Author: shimmering kitchen

sounds rational, but that’s actually a high rate of failure method. Just go buy a gasoline generator and run it inside an enclosed place with you. Much more effective.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833417)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:55 PM
Author: very tactful athletic conference school cafeteria

honestly i think thats totally normal and jsut masculine autistic behavior tbh

i do think others are having these thoughts but dont have control over them as well as i do so i'll ruminate on if theyre having the thoughts for them - when im in public ill see some huge nig at a coffee shop and think hes thining about killing everyone in there so ill look around for shit he might start killing people with and plan how im gonna have to kill this nigger here in the room all in a manner of seconds, i pretty much actively scan every public place for someone doing a m-sui combo and cooridnate how to assess who i would kill basically and how - which is hilarous bc its actually life affirming in some way

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833423)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 8:11 AM
Author: Haunting stock car

this is normal

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833775)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 4:30 PM
Author: very tactful athletic conference school cafeteria

ty

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49834835)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:51 PM
Author: Puce Kink-friendly Heaven Blood Rage

thee you on a dark nite tp

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833412)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:52 PM
Author: Marvelous Office

You'll be fine bud. Might want to work on the diet is all.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833414)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:52 PM
Author: green corn cake

You'd never maek it in L.A.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833415)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:53 PM
Author: shimmering kitchen

Why not, brother?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833418)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 9:44 AM
Author: blue hateful chapel

I'm going to level with you. You're in hell, and hell is an intelligence test. The potential exit ramp is death. But because you're an unworthy, unwashed mess of a spiritual existence, the drive is to self aggrandize, self preserve, and replicate your evil across the world. Giving in to those pressures ensures further incarnations until you learn to give that shit up

The truth of this is all around you. The entire world is quite literally built on killing in order to preserve yourself until your body gives out from whatever cause du jour and you become the consumed

With death as a literal inevitability, and with the condition for sustaining life being that you must take other life, you're being faced, every day, with whether or not you are moral enough to check out and move on. And yet, in the midst of this existential horror, your concern is about your fat wife. You'll be repeating this experience many more times

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49833884)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:31 PM
Author: Talking buck-toothed abode national security agency



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49834508)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:06 PM
Author: blue hateful chapel



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49834422)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:32 PM
Author: Erotic mood base

it's time for us to hike the tour de mont blanc. this will give you a refreshing new outlook on life. our wives can stay in chamonix while we complete the trek.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49834516)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:44 PM
Author: blue hateful chapel

Motherfucker, do you think he has the money for that!?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49834553)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 3:12 PM
Author: shimmering kitchen

Let's go, brother.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49834651)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:07 PM
Author: Erotic mood base

You will not be depressed with the tour de Mont Blanc on your plate

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49838500)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:47 PM
Author: aquamarine exciting half-breed church

you're killing me, buster

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49834569)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:53 PM
Author: Painfully honest macaca parlour

Maybe take up fishing. Its pretty underrated.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49834586)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:54 PM
Author: razzle dragon

Motherfucker, do you think he has the money for that!?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49834590)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:55 PM
Author: blue hateful chapel



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49834599)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 7:39 AM
Author: shimmering kitchen

Happened again this morning, brothers.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49836449)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 7:54 AM
Author: blue hateful chapel

Like every other element of your life, you'll do nothing about it

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49836461)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:11 AM
Author: Sapphire Galvanic Locale Selfie

suicide is pretty cowardly and will fuck up your kids a lot. at least give one of your sons agency and have him shoot you

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49836476)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:52 PM
Author: Frutiger Aero

wow tp

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49838612)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 9:20 PM
Author: Senior Ethics Official

Seriously go fishing. Its simple. But really fun. Ancient simple pleasure. Low barrier to entry. Out in nature which is proven to combat "depression" (some kike invented pathology)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49838718)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:19 PM
Author: blue hateful chapel

Sorry, uhh, "Luke." We let you down ITT. Can you tell us about some of the thoughts and methods that have come to mind?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49838539)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:21 PM
Author: Translucent Shitlib Karate

i think you're a real piece of shit for criticizing your wife's body after she bore you four children and you ate yourself into morbid obesity

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49838542)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:44 PM
Author: luke the drifter (definite and ineradicable gauge of its upward moving)

Thank you for your honest assessment of my faults, brother. I will internalize them and chew on the bile as it comes up.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2).#49838586)