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Anyone else here have MANIC DEPRESSION?
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 12:29 PM Author: Razzmatazz Range I allegedly have it, but I don't really believe its real and refuse to take medicine. But also another thing is that I see its popular these days for people to either complain about or identify with their "mental illnesses". I reject this behavior. I generally don't tell anyone I was diagnosed with this. But I also secretly think it makes me better than other people. A lot of famous people have had manic depression. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49451891) |
Date: November 22nd, 2025 12:30 PM Author: Appetizing Zombie-like Market Deer Antler If you can't control yourself than you're not any better than the people you're judging.
Hth
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 12:32 PM Author: Razzmatazz Range well the issue is that I never get to publicly identify with it because I don't really believe in it so I don't want to tie it up with how people view me. But also I secretly wish people knew because I think its a superior phenotype. So that's why I'm testing the waters out here. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49451899) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 12:55 PM Author: flirting son of senegal really tough guy the gook, the turdskin, the lib pumo spammer … pretty much wh9mever we want. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49451943) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 1:04 PM Author: Electric ocher giraffe quadroon undiagnosed (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49451960) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 1:12 PM Author: Rebellious boltzmann If you do indeed have it but can function without it, it's likely a very mild case.
I have a severe case of manic depression combined with schizophrenia. When I'm manic I run on about 2-4 hours a sleep for extended periods. The schizophrenic symptoms are more crippling as it involves severe persecutory delusions that make me unable to function. I've been hospitalized eight or nine times for this (I've lost count).
My case is severe enough where I've finally accepted that I need medication. When I go off my meds I end up in the hospital eventually, often lose my job, etc. |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 1:13 PM Author: Rebellious boltzmann But I don't "identify" with the illness or discuss it with anyone apart from my doctor. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49451978) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 1:24 PM Author: Razzmatazz Range interesting. they didn't specify whether they thought it was mild or moderate or severe but they said that its bipolar 1 not 2 or arguably even schizoaffective. I have been psychotic like twice but only because of severe mood episodes (mania) and those were the only times I was hospitalized. I don't plan on ever going back though. I cut back on stress and don't use drugs or alcohol anymore and my symptoms are now basically mild but still noticeable. it only comes out really on rare occasions or extreme conditions, otherwise I don't think anyone would know the difference. that's part of why I think its mostly bullshit, because of how it feels like the entire thing is so conditional, like it only activates under certain conditions like stress or heavy drinking, but otherwise its not much different than normal highs and lows of a human. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452003) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 1:38 PM Author: Rebellious boltzmann Well if you can function without meds it's probably mild.
I wasn't drinking or using drugs during any of my psychotic episodes, and I wasn't under extreme stress or anything, either. In my case the paranoia built up over around two years until I became fully psychotic overnight.
That first psychotic episode started a cycle: become psychotic, do enough crazy things that the police get involved, I get hauled off to the hospital, and I stabilize on medication. But after each hospitalization I'd stop the meds, and the paranoia and mania would inevitably creep back up, and the cycle would repeat. It took eight or nine hospitalizations for me to acknowledge that I needed meds. |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 1:51 PM Author: Razzmatazz Range yeah that sounds pretty serious. by your standard I would say I definitely am a mild case. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452067) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:27 PM Author: Rebellious boltzmann Haven't had a single psychotic episode since I started taking meds consistently about 5.5 years ago, so the meds are definitely doing something. I'm gainfully employed but still somewhat functionally limited. That's more tied to severe anxiety than anything else, though. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452131) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:29 PM Author: Heady Faggotry Brethren Hi boomerboat, hope you're doing well (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452139) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:33 PM Author: Rebellious boltzmann I'm not boomerboat, but I remember he and I share some similar experiences. If I remember correctly, his symptoms were more of extreme mania, whereas my biggest issue was severe psychosis. And he's on different meds than me. I don't remember exactly what he is/was taking. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452147) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:02 PM Author: Stimulating mental disorder striped hyena What meds do you take? I am on Latuda (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452091) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:28 PM Author: Rebellious boltzmann Latuda, Effexor, and Klonopin right now. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452135) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:37 PM Author: Stimulating mental disorder striped hyena Latuda is the least worst antipsychotic I've been on
Abilify really sucked for me & Zyprexa turned me into a hungry, tired zombie |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:42 PM Author: Rebellious boltzmann Similar experience for me. I went through a bunch of different antipsychotics before settling on Latuda. It's the only one I've been able to tolerate long-term. All the others I tried made me gain weight, and most also caused too much drowsiness.
Caplyta is a promising alternative to Latuda, but I'm stable on Latuda and haven't had a need to switch. |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:42 PM Author: Heady Faggotry Brethren Just started Effexor a few weeks ago. Doc wanted to switch me from Cymbalta. Not sure why (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452165) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:47 PM Author: Rebellious boltzmann All the SSRIs/SNRIs have about the same effectiveness for depression and anxiety. Not sure why your doctor made you switch. According to my psychiatrist, who has decades of experience and handles more serious cases, there's no point in switching between SSRIs/SNRIs unless there's some weird, uncommon interaction with another drug or an intolerable side effect (also uncommon). (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452172) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:51 PM Author: Heady Faggotry Brethren Probably because I still have daily suicidal ideations and Cymbalta wasn't helping. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452176) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 3:00 PM Author: Rebellious boltzmann Well what I said could be wrong, to be honest. I've seen enough psychiatrists over the last decade to realize psychiatry is the "least scientific" of all the fields of medicine. If you see three different psychiatrists, you'll probably get three different opinions. And some of them are so cautious and conservative that they won't prescribe controlled substances.
I just trust my doctor because he has decades of experience and specializes in more extreme cases. |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 1:40 PM Author: mildly autistic trailer park Apparently I have been manic since the 90s (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452042) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:41 PM Author: Bipolar business firm newt you should be put down if you go off your meds again. "I don't need meds! Oops, haha" x 10 as your family and friends and overall society suffer. Selfish AF (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452162) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:54 PM Author: Stimulating mental disorder striped hyena The problem is, many of the meds are legit awful. Abilify is what they first put me on and it was terrible. I had some very unpleasant akathisia on it. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452183) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 3:01 PM Author: Bipolar business firm newt better than the alternative IMO. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452197) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 3:06 PM Author: Rebellious boltzmann The first-line medications are incapacitating and have horrible side effects. The first time I took an antipsychotic medication, it sedated me so much that I did nothing all day and could barely lift a cigarette up to my mouth. I was incapable of holding down a job in that state. Plus most of the medications make you gain a fuck-ton of weight. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452208) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 5:08 PM Author: mildly autistic trailer park My ex-gf, who is a schizophrenic, when she was on her meds, I would leave her in a chair in the corner of my dining room under a fake plant with the cat, a bottle of powers whiskey, standing ashtray, and a carton of American spirits yellow. I would go to work and come back 12 hours later to a half drank bottle of whiskey, a perfectly formed spiral of cigarette butts in the ashtray and her and the cat exactly how I left them. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452461) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 3:10 PM Author: Stimulating mental disorder striped hyena I can confidently say that for me, decades of Abilify would be a worse outcome than decades of being repeatedly cycled through a psych ward.
Luckily there are other meds. |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 5:05 PM Author: mildly autistic trailer park Meds are not for the patient, they are for those around the patient. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452456) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 1:24 PM Author: Stimulating mental disorder striped hyena Maybe me.
I'm definitely a depressedmo but I have a hard time seeing the mania.
At the same time I've had episodes of psychosis. These have been primarily (but not always) brought on by alcohol abuse. |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:10 PM Author: trip ivory generalized bond kitty use to get depression, but not maniacally. I changed my attitude towards lyfe/ftge, and now am never depressed. hth (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452103) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:11 PM Author: hairraiser hominid Other Poasters have accused me of having this diagnosis from time to time. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452106) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:52 PM Author: judgmental thriller kitty cat has anyone ever accused you of being *manic* depressive? i think people (accurately) diagnosis you of being depressed. if you were manic depressive, you'd have periods of abnormally high energy and confidence. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452177) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 2:29 PM Author: Bright concupiscible parlour (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452140) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 3:23 PM Author: Rebellious boltzmann I'm the pumo from higher up in the thread. Manic depression, schizophrenia, etc. are very real based on my personal experience.
I've had multiple psychotic episodes. Hallucinated at the most severe points. No drugs or alcohol involved in any of them. Hospitalized a bunch of times, as I mentioned.
I need to reiterate that this stuff is VERY real and usually life-altering in a negative way.
My long-term girlfriend left me after the second episode. Many friends stopped talking to me. I lost two jobs. I had to move back in with my parents. etc.
The stigma is just as real. While I did do some insane and bizarre things when I was psychotic, I did absolutely nothing wrong/illegal/unethical/etc., nor did doing so ever seriously cross my mind. And as I mentioned, there were no drugs involved. But so many people cut ties with me so quickly that it was indescribably demoralizing.
Returning to some level of normalcy takes at least several years after multiple psychotic episodes. You don't just "snap out of it."
At least my good friends stuck with me, and I wasn't completely abandoned. I still have a support network.
You can't return to your "old self" after suffering through these types of mental health issues. You become a different person.
I don't discuss this with anyone other than my doctor, and I post about it a few times a year on xo when the topic pops up. I'm just typing this out because it just sits bottled up inside of me the rest of the time. |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 3:28 PM Author: Galvanic Embarrassed To The Bone Location Windowlicker I’ve had many bipolar and schizophrenic clients catch criminal cases during psychotic episodes so I’m also very convinced their mental illnesses are real and extremely debilitating (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452259) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 4:11 PM Author: odious maroon piazza boiling water Moderate case, undiagnosed, no meds.
For the most part, it can be kept in check somewhat by avoiding stress and getting plenty of sleep (which is a big challenge because it actively works against me getting sleep). The most common issues day-to-day are obsessiveness and a complete lack of self-control. My ability to say ... stop playing a video game or stop poasting or stop eating junk food (which I usually just entirely avoid for this reason) is worse than a child's. Emotional regulation is also very poor. Sometimes anger issues or severe anxiety. High level of risk taking and disregard for consequences.
Luckily no real psychotic episodes. About the closest I came was a few years ago, living alone in a large house in an isolated area because I moved 6 months before my wife while she was waiting to be transferred. After a while, I developed a fear that I was going to open a random door in the house and a monster was just going to be ... there (it looked sort of like Anima from FFX). I never had a rational belief that this was true in any way, just a general feeling of unease, and I was concerned about the possibility that it seemed conceivable that I MIGHT become unable to distinguish the truth. |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 5:10 PM Author: mildly autistic trailer park Eating a healthy diet and regular sunlight and exercise along with vitamin D fixes a lot of mental issues. A lot. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49452463) |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 6:14 PM Author: odious maroon piazza boiling water My diet is usually pretty decent. Sunlight and exercise have been issues lately though.
I have severe sleep issues. Like I may sleep 2-4 hours, wake up completely exhausted, and then spend another 2-3 hours trying to go back to sleep so that I can get the remainder of my rest. Then I'm starting work late because I slept so inefficiently, and it impacts the whole rest of the day.
I can sleep through a whole night if I take melatonin AND some kind of sleep aid with diphenhydramine or something similar, but then the act of waking up and getting started on the day takes several hours longer than it should anyways. |
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Date: November 22nd, 2025 7:35 PM Author: mildly autistic trailer park I am an abysmal sleeper, although I have gotten better with 1. Eating insanely healthy high protein, low carb, moderate fat; 2. Minimizing stress to the extent possible; 3. Not drinking much; 4. Cutting back on caffeine to one can of diet soda a day; 5. No fap; 6. Getting up at the latest at 5:45am; 6. Vitamins (d especially recently added zinc which I was getting from sports drinks in some amount); 7. Lots of exercise heavy weights and walking.
I still am a degenerate nicotine addict but trying to quit that.
I doubt I will ever have a good sleep pattern as I seem to function fine off 4.5 hours or so, but forcing myself to bed shortly after midnight and waking at 5:45 at the latest (some days it’s 3am, sometimes whatever the daylight savings change messed me up) gets me a target of 5.5 which is better than 4.5. |
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Date: November 23rd, 2025 10:40 AM Author: carnelian faggot firefighter Imho as a mentally ill insane internet poaster who makes 0k due to mental illness (and the republican caucus), one of the things separating the typically mentally ill schizophrenic case (early 20s guy) and the Loser who's at peace with the world and dgaf (40s guy) is that the former has an extra 2500 calories of boundless energy per day and hasn't accepted that life sucks. So he burns his energy on liberal arts bullshit, mania, depression, when he should be focused on OCI or gymmaxxing or something. The latter also benefits from having no energy or will to Care about shit, which helps. OYT for one overcame his mental illness by Accepting that life sucks imho. Clique Theory also works for this. Accept it, champ. Accept it. Stop caring. If you've started caring, stop. It is only when you stop caring that you can grow as a person and become a man proper. Discuss. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5801057&forum_id=2:#49453630) |
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Date: November 23rd, 2025 11:33 AM Author: Razzmatazz Range idk, but one thing I'll say is mentioned manic depression but I forgot to mention that I literally never feel depressed. I just have had some episodes of mania, binge drinking and coke use and general insanity. But its not something that causes me direct suffering which is probably why I don't take the meds or seek out help for it. so I don't think your comment applies to me. thats more for people who feel life sucks and complain about it. also I have low empathy but its actually OK sometimes in transient bursts.
in terms of what you just said its very xo in the sense that its striverish and focused on success which I think is your main point of suffering. even as you say you "don't care" about it anymore its framed in terms of surrender and acceptance of something "lesser". to me people who care about their prestige rank among other humans and want to be accepted for it are the insane ones. |