1. afternoon meet-up with KYOOOOT 22 y/o grad student 7.5 on her campus. she's going to show me around. hope she's just chill and kyoot and not a hyperactive cartoonish annoying cunt. very depressed that her mom is visiting her all summer, which means no action and she's traditional. honestly she's so cute and youthful looking that i'd be glad just to have her positive attention - which i can't say for vast majority of girls.

2. getting drinks with 23 y/o asian american shitlib 5, this seems very risky and low pay-off. i honestly hate lena dunham asian girls like this, but it's a good chance to practice conversational skills i guess? i tell myself that, but i'm probably just going to get clowned on and it'll make me more depressed

3. getting drinks afterwards with 34 y/o asian economist 4. we've met one time before. she let me molest her a little but didn't let me go back to her place. hoping she does this time, or it's going to be a sad trip back home

Saturday

4. getting lunch with 23 y/o fob grad student 6. she barely messages me anything, seems like a spoiled entitled cunt. we'll see how this goes, but not looking to play the traditional doting fob asian guy who usually showers her with attention

5. dinner with 25 y/o fob data analyst 5. getting decent vibes from her through text, but she's maybe a little traditional.

Sunday

6. afternoon coffee with 25 y/o korean american accountant 5. she's decently cute, and she's new to online dating (huge plus) but referred to guys on tinder as "creeepers" so she's probably going to INCEL SHAME me, fuck.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3627143&forum_id=2#33400982)

1. 22 y/o kyoot grad student 7.5. i had high expectations, but she was an annoying empty headed cell phone addicted cunt. she squeaks when she talks, and talks only about the most inane shit. to give you an idea, after i asked her about her upcoming vacation, she made some cute face, gave an enthusiastic squeal, and motioned in the air "vacation time! yeah yeah yeah!" as if she's an anime character or something. her face was also riddled with acne and not nearly as pretty as her pictures. good body though but i felt almost zero attraction to her. it was a painful 2 hours we spent together, like pulling teeth, and i became a morose faggot that wanted to end my life by the time it was over.

2. 23 y/o asian american shitlib 5. i was in a serious funk from #1 and felt depressed out of my mind. i had reverted to an autistic comatose vegetable and i felt fated that the next date would be doomed by this. in the intervening hour or so, i saw plenty of agwwg walk by which put me in an even more sour mood. luckily, i get to the bar and this girl was happy to see me and even cuter than her pictures. was awkward at first, but i felt a lot more comfortable once i noticed that she was even more nervous than i was. this was her 2nd online date ever, and we laughed over how poorly her first one went. she wasn't nearly as annoyingly shitlib as i imputed from her profile, and we got along pretty well. she started veering towards talk about friends, and the normie fag shit she does, and i reeled back emotionally because i ain't into that gay shit. pulled the plug, said goodbye, have no idea if i'll text her again. she seems into me though, but i know a normal relationship with her wouldn't last.

3. 33 y/o economist 4. fuckkk this cunttt. made me wait at bar for almost 20 minutes. autistic as shit, even more frigid than the first time we met. i was hoping this would be an easy lay, but she wouldn't even let me kiss her. had to put up with so much annoying shit, i won't see her again.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3627143&forum_id=2#33406350)

got any pics?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3627143&forum_id=2#33406386)

4. bitch cancelled

5. cunt cancelled

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3627143&forum_id=2#33409127)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YlR0LqjjYYs

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3627143&forum_id=2#33408131)

and the first one today just cancelled on me. i feel an odd kind of zen about it, instead of the murderous rage that i usually would feel. is this improvement?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3627143&forum_id=2#33408179)

i didn't date from 18-25, if i don't date now, it'll be never

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3627143&forum_id=2#33409150)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oM1SxH-uwVw

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3627143&forum_id=2#33409171)

simple enough, fine, but my problem is that i don't have a well defined vision of heaven, not anywhere close to it. or my vision of heaven is something that is no longer attainable (a satisfying youth). or i know that heaven doesn't exist for me because i'm genetically destined to always be unhappy.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3627143&forum_id=2#33409216)