I didn't used to drink more than a couple times a month before I was in my 30s. I went to a bachelor party one night and I got a bad feeling about what was about to happen to the stripper (and duh, she was actually just a hooker) and I drove home. On my way I get pulled over and DUI time. I used to only smoke pot but I did a deferred pros and that that came with the possibility of weekly UAs (I never actually got tested once) so I went from weed to having a few glasses of wine at night. Once you hit a certain threshold there's no going back. My wife doesn't exactly help. She'll make me stop for a few days but then have us go out and drink. She really likes white wine and sucking cock.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5493322&forum_id=2...id#47419536)

I didnt binge drink that much really, but i was definitely a regular drinker. Fucking loved a lunchtime pint. I was dependent i think since on the 2nd night of no-drink i'd wake always wake up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat.

It took my salivary stone surgery and recovering for a few weeks to reset my brain a bit. After that it was really easy not to drink. Now, i can have 1 glass once a week and not grab for another glass or another bottle. I'm not fussed if the event we're going to doesn't have alcohol etc.

Stopping an addictive substance or reducing it at least is going to be uncomfortable for awhile. After that's accepted it can be easier to manage it.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5493322&forum_id=2...id#47419561)

I don't even like weed anymore. So boring. I want to get drunk and plow my wife 24/7. I just did 4 weeks sober. Then I went out one night at a dance tournament and another dad handed me a flask. I took one drink. Next day my dad says he's riding out his cancer w/o chemo and that was the excuse I needed. Disappeared from work for a week and got plastered by 9 am every day.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5493322&forum_id=2...id#47419568)

I do suggest a nice bit of mushrooms (2.5-3.5gs but not more), over a quiet weekend soon. It's really the only thing that actually helped me dealing with my mother's passing from her cancer.

Also, go back to weed and smoke when you get a craving for a drink if you're having a problem slowing down. You can still go nuts on your wife without the booze ljl.

Offer stands though, if you ever need - shoot me an email and im happy to write or call about all that shit if you're not in the greatest spot with it or talk about nothing at all. It's going to be a weird time but you and your fam will get through it. IT's been years and the rest of my family has hardly processed everything. You can get lost in it if you let it. Looking at my brother and father, I recommend not doing that. You can get to spot where all the anger and frustrating etc. is replaced by gratitude and peace. It hurts and takes time but there's a beauty to it in the end also.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5493322&forum_id=2...id#47419644)

My wife's bpd is bad with anger mostly is about her thinking I cheat, which like the Holocaust, has never happened. She found 2 pairs of extra small thongs panties and accused me of bringing a girl home.Like I'd even have time. Saddest part was her deciding to wear them to show how much hotter she is against this imaginary woman. But she should not fit those. I haven't seen her eat in months.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5493322&forum_id=2...id#47421808)

I had another cop pull me over with this 21 year old stripper I was dating (I was 19). I was so drunk I fell out of the car when I tried to roll down my window. He had her drive me home. Her friend was in my trunk. She said she was a stripper but her parents were jew drs and she never had any money. I don't think she ever actually danced. The next night we had a huge party at her house. They had white carpets that got muddy as fuck. She tried to clean them with Murphy's oil soap. Bad idea. I apologized to her parents and they offered to send me to med school. I left.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5493322&forum_id=2...id#47615082)

ps that drunk boy's name was Albert Einstein

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5493322&forum_id=2...id#47615092)