"He's raping her" as in "boner police" was idk like thought-masturbating to the idea of us fucking (the minds of these people never cease to disturb; they also call *me* retarded for not assuming that this sort of wicked behavior and intent is even possible when I interact with people. Call me crazy but I don't really want to live in a world where I have to assume by default that 1. everyone is wearing a mask wildly different from their face, and for purposes that are bizarrely sinister, at that and 2. people you chat up to shoot the shit about the day-to-day are inwardsly masturbating and pretending to themselves that it's gay sex.) when I was just trying to be his friend to help stabilize him so the statement was made, registered as true (that guy actually did make me deranged, and he was gathering blackmail on it as well) with the double meaning that I'm also raping her

The irony I guess is that a big thing that this "marriage" thing that I was trying to figure out is that this woman has been raping me for a very, very long time and warping my personality and spirit in the process. I don't really care as I used to very much like her or at least think that I did but it's become apparent over the years since that she was after me for the wrong reasons and tbh isn't mentally or emotionally stable or mature enough to have the kind of relationship that i'm accustomed to. I've noticed that these people, for all of their power and tricks, are not very well adjusted or well-intentioned and while I'm too washed out to be "afraid" it does regularly disturb

Afaik she drew that perverse weirdo into this to rip away at my credibility and spiritual armor because she's too dumb and I guess fundamentally dishonest to be capable of doing it herself. Have I mentioned that these people are over-the-top wicked?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5865196&forum_id=2...id.#49875997)

Sorry for not 100% perfect speedrunning my life but pretty much everybody actually in it agrees that not much was particularly disagreeable about it up until this stupid bullshit started going off. I was fairly well respected in my community and a point of contact between disparate groups and I spent a good deal of time going about and observing and taking in the issues of day that people experience, attempting to empathize, with the intent of turning it into idk at the very least sensible ideas that could be turned either into policy or product. If you want to degrade it to the level of comparison to that of my "peers" it beats a lot of what they were doing---and believe me, I know!

And a lot of this, frankly, was engaging in esoteric processes that benefitted the whole and it's become all too convenient to scapegoat me for it, as I was specifically sitting down on my "Saturn return" to get the knowledge that I guess "Saturn" wants to share with you about your life (here's what *I* learned---a good chunk of the people I sacrificed and shedded for were, by and large, shit! lmao). None of what's occurred in recent years is particularly standard, expected, or sensible and nor is the treatment that's been derived from it.

I'll also note that if I seem a little black or "dark" compared to my freshly blood-washed "peers" and parasites it is only because while everyone else has been unloading non-stop over the past three years to the point of shooting blanks or plastics, grubbing up all the shekels they can from a now-sick man in intense anguish, I haven't even begun to fire back until very, very recently.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5865196&forum_id=2...id.#49876036)

As I'm aware this thing you've described in the OP was also an aim of "CSLG". Go figure.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5865196&forum_id=2...id.#49876130)