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I hate my life and I wake up each morning thinking about killself

Killself and my concrete plan to carry out same is literally...
multi-colored candlestick maker heaven
  04/21/26
I usually don’t think about killself until about 10am ...
Pale Office Boiling Water
  04/21/26
Wow that's dark. I usually think killself first thing in the...
multi-colored candlestick maker heaven
  04/21/26
Isn't your wife significantly thinner than you?
citrine sandwich
  04/21/26
Yes, I am severely overweight. I eat because I hate myself, ...
multi-colored candlestick maker heaven
  04/21/26
so how is your wife fat?
citrine sandwich
  04/21/26
You haven't seen her?
bright awkward institution patrolman
  04/22/26
I don't think she's fat, is she? Or maybe she just looks ski...
citrine sandwich
  04/22/26
you need Angine de Poitrine, post haste /_\
crawly appetizing giraffe
  04/21/26
moar liek Vagine de Vagine
big pit
  04/21/26
Are there things that you used to enjoy or find rewarding bu...
beady-eyed aqua whorehouse water buffalo
  04/21/26
I think there was a time that I enjoyed going outside or tal...
multi-colored candlestick maker heaven
  04/21/26
I definitely think you should explore different hobbies and ...
beady-eyed aqua whorehouse water buffalo
  04/21/26
I think my posting predates any marital animosity
multi-colored candlestick maker heaven
  04/21/26
According to AI this is normal. Self awareness peaks in the ...
multi-colored candlestick maker heaven
  04/21/26
can't trust a man that doesnt think about killing himslef al...
Deranged Fortuitous Meteor
  04/21/26
Yeah, and as pointed out in the OP it isn’t literally ...
multi-colored candlestick maker heaven
  04/21/26
i think about killing myself for probably a good 8-15% of my...
Deranged Fortuitous Meteor
  04/21/26
Interesting. Is there any external stimulus that tends to br...
multi-colored candlestick maker heaven
  04/21/26
most of the day it just will start out of nowhere and then l...
Deranged Fortuitous Meteor
  04/21/26
i was drifting off to sleep on the couch this evening and ha...
citrine sandwich
  04/21/26
sounds rational, but that’s actually a high rate of fa...
multi-colored candlestick maker heaven
  04/21/26
honestly i think thats totally normal and jsut masculine aut...
Deranged Fortuitous Meteor
  04/21/26
this is normal
big pit
  04/22/26
ty
Deranged Fortuitous Meteor
  04/22/26
thee you on a dark nite tp
vigorous violet ape
  04/21/26
You'll be fine bud. Might want to work on the diet is all.
Flatulent Provocative Love Of Her Life Private Investor
  04/21/26
You'd never maek it in L.A.
bistre razzle-dazzle church kitty cat
  04/21/26
Why not, brother?
multi-colored candlestick maker heaven
  04/21/26
I'm going to level with you. You're in hell, and hell is an...
bright awkward institution patrolman
  04/22/26
...
mentally impaired jap casino
  04/22/26
...
bright awkward institution patrolman
  04/22/26
it's time for us to hike the tour de mont blanc. this will ...
talking tank
  04/22/26
Motherfucker, do you think he has the money for that!?
bright awkward institution patrolman
  04/22/26
Let's go, brother.
multi-colored candlestick maker heaven
  04/22/26
You will not be depressed with the tour de Mont Blanc on you...
talking tank
  04/23/26
you're killing me, buster
histrionic brunch
  04/22/26
Maybe take up fishing. Its pretty underrated.
Apoplectic quadroon wrinkle
  04/22/26
Motherfucker, do you think he has the money for that!?
citrine sandwich
  04/22/26
...
bright awkward institution patrolman
  04/22/26
Happened again this morning, brothers.
multi-colored candlestick maker heaven
  04/23/26
Like every other element of your life, you'll do nothing abo...
bright awkward institution patrolman
  04/23/26
suicide is pretty cowardly and will fuck up your kids a lot....
filthy university
  04/23/26
wow tp
vigorous violet ape
  04/23/26
Seriously go fishing. Its simple. But really fun. Ancient si...
Apoplectic quadroon wrinkle
  04/23/26
Sorry, uhh, "Luke." We let you down ITT. Can you ...
bright awkward institution patrolman
  04/23/26
i think you're a real piece of shit for criticizing your wif...
french set black woman
  04/23/26
Thank you for your honest assessment of my faults, brother. ...
multi-colored candlestick maker heaven
  04/23/26


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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:13 PM
Author: multi-colored candlestick maker heaven

Killself and my concrete plan to carry out same is literally the first thought I have each morning. No cap.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833018)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:17 PM
Author: Pale Office Boiling Water

I usually don’t think about killself until about 10am but once I do it’s all I think about for the rest of the day

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833031)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:20 PM
Author: multi-colored candlestick maker heaven

Wow that's dark. I usually think killself first thing in the morning, then things improve, and it returns when I'm trying to handle my kids in the evening time. I try not talking to my wife as we go to bed.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833035)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 9:45 PM
Author: citrine sandwich

Isn't your wife significantly thinner than you?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833243)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:10 PM
Author: multi-colored candlestick maker heaven

Yes, I am severely overweight. I eat because I hate myself, and I hate myself because I eat. It’s a vicious cycle.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833295)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:47 PM
Author: citrine sandwich

so how is your wife fat?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833397)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 9:37 AM
Author: bright awkward institution patrolman

You haven't seen her?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833861)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 1:38 PM
Author: citrine sandwich

I don't think she's fat, is she? Or maybe she just looks skinny compared to disco

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49834362)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:19 PM
Author: crawly appetizing giraffe

you need Angine de Poitrine, post haste /_\

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833034)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:25 PM
Author: big pit

moar liek Vagine de Vagine

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833047)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:20 PM
Author: beady-eyed aqua whorehouse water buffalo

Are there things that you used to enjoy or find rewarding but no longer do? Or have you never had anything to look forward to?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833036)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:25 PM
Author: multi-colored candlestick maker heaven

I think there was a time that I enjoyed going outside or talking to my wife. I don't do either anymore. I just stay inside all day. I remember there was a time when I was interested in home improvement projects. Lol at that now. There was a time when I wanted to play catch with my sons, but they hate the game and so I came to hate it too. There were some other hobbies too that I absolutely cannot stand now. I would say on a scale of 1 to Anhedonia, I'm safely in the "A zone."

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833048)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 9:05 PM
Author: beady-eyed aqua whorehouse water buffalo

I definitely think you should explore different hobbies and see if something brings you joy.

Were you already poasting before you started hating your wife? It's possible XO misogyny is exacerbating your resentment or even caused it in the first place.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833166)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 9:43 PM
Author: multi-colored candlestick maker heaven

I think my posting predates any marital animosity

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833237)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 9:02 PM
Author: multi-colored candlestick maker heaven

According to AI this is normal. Self awareness peaks in the morning and in the evening.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833157)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:18 PM
Author: Deranged Fortuitous Meteor

can't trust a man that doesnt think about killing himslef all the time tbh

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833319)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:23 PM
Author: multi-colored candlestick maker heaven

Yeah, and as pointed out in the OP it isn’t literally all the time, it’s just first thing in the mornings and again in the evenings.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833338)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:26 PM
Author: Deranged Fortuitous Meteor

i think about killing myself for probably a good 8-15% of my waking day and I'm over 6ft and have a huge dick with a cr life

when im not thinkig of kms i think about harming others for at least another 15-20% of the day

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833347)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:29 PM
Author: multi-colored candlestick maker heaven

Interesting. Is there any external stimulus that tends to bring up kms for you? Or does it just hit like a tornado in the springtime, up out of nowhere, but with an all encompassing structure leveling fury that cannot be ignored?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833353)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:49 PM
Author: Deranged Fortuitous Meteor

most of the day it just will start out of nowhere and then loop from there

if homidical theres usually a extrnal stimuli

like last night i had a dream about knocking these 2 people that did something to me clean the fuck out in a mall and slamming htem into a wall or something and then my dad came out of nowhere and was like chill out god is goign to fuck them for you or something

so actually its in my nonwaking life now too

just the senselessness and pontlessness of it all and al this toil for nothing that i see is a huge scam and that no one cares and wont lead to my joy or more young hole etc and how i try to do things righteoulsy but it just seems so dumb to not be a piece of shit and it will start it up again

i think most comes from unfulfilled desires, unmet needs and perceived inustices directed inwardly

seems almost rational tbh

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833404)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:50 PM
Author: citrine sandwich

i was drifting off to sleep on the couch this evening and had a vivid thought of just grabbing the sharpest kitchen knife and jabbing it straight into my neck

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833408)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:52 PM
Author: multi-colored candlestick maker heaven

sounds rational, but that’s actually a high rate of failure method. Just go buy a gasoline generator and run it inside an enclosed place with you. Much more effective.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833417)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:55 PM
Author: Deranged Fortuitous Meteor

honestly i think thats totally normal and jsut masculine autistic behavior tbh

i do think others are having these thoughts but dont have control over them as well as i do so i'll ruminate on if theyre having the thoughts for them - when im in public ill see some huge nig at a coffee shop and think hes thining about killing everyone in there so ill look around for shit he might start killing people with and plan how im gonna have to kill this nigger here in the room all in a manner of seconds, i pretty much actively scan every public place for someone doing a m-sui combo and cooridnate how to assess who i would kill basically and how - which is hilarous bc its actually life affirming in some way

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833423)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 8:11 AM
Author: big pit

this is normal

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833775)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 4:30 PM
Author: Deranged Fortuitous Meteor

ty

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49834835)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:51 PM
Author: vigorous violet ape

thee you on a dark nite tp

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833412)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:52 PM
Author: Flatulent Provocative Love Of Her Life Private Investor

You'll be fine bud. Might want to work on the diet is all.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833414)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:52 PM
Author: bistre razzle-dazzle church kitty cat

You'd never maek it in L.A.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833415)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:53 PM
Author: multi-colored candlestick maker heaven

Why not, brother?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833418)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 9:44 AM
Author: bright awkward institution patrolman

I'm going to level with you. You're in hell, and hell is an intelligence test. The potential exit ramp is death. But because you're an unworthy, unwashed mess of a spiritual existence, the drive is to self aggrandize, self preserve, and replicate your evil across the world. Giving in to those pressures ensures further incarnations until you learn to give that shit up

The truth of this is all around you. The entire world is quite literally built on killing in order to preserve yourself until your body gives out from whatever cause du jour and you become the consumed

With death as a literal inevitability, and with the condition for sustaining life being that you must take other life, you're being faced, every day, with whether or not you are moral enough to check out and move on. And yet, in the midst of this existential horror, your concern is about your fat wife. You'll be repeating this experience many more times

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49833884)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:31 PM
Author: mentally impaired jap casino



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49834508)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:06 PM
Author: bright awkward institution patrolman



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49834422)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:32 PM
Author: talking tank

it's time for us to hike the tour de mont blanc. this will give you a refreshing new outlook on life. our wives can stay in chamonix while we complete the trek.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49834516)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:44 PM
Author: bright awkward institution patrolman

Motherfucker, do you think he has the money for that!?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49834553)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 3:12 PM
Author: multi-colored candlestick maker heaven

Let's go, brother.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49834651)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:07 PM
Author: talking tank

You will not be depressed with the tour de Mont Blanc on your plate

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49838500)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:47 PM
Author: histrionic brunch

you're killing me, buster

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49834569)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:53 PM
Author: Apoplectic quadroon wrinkle

Maybe take up fishing. Its pretty underrated.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49834586)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:54 PM
Author: citrine sandwich

Motherfucker, do you think he has the money for that!?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49834590)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:55 PM
Author: bright awkward institution patrolman



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49834599)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 7:39 AM
Author: multi-colored candlestick maker heaven

Happened again this morning, brothers.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49836449)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 7:54 AM
Author: bright awkward institution patrolman

Like every other element of your life, you'll do nothing about it

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49836461)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:11 AM
Author: filthy university

suicide is pretty cowardly and will fuck up your kids a lot. at least give one of your sons agency and have him shoot you

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49836476)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:52 PM
Author: vigorous violet ape

wow tp

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49838612)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 9:20 PM
Author: Apoplectic quadroon wrinkle

Seriously go fishing. Its simple. But really fun. Ancient simple pleasure. Low barrier to entry. Out in nature which is proven to combat "depression" (some kike invented pathology)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49838718)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:19 PM
Author: bright awkward institution patrolman

Sorry, uhh, "Luke." We let you down ITT. Can you tell us about some of the thoughts and methods that have come to mind?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49838539)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:21 PM
Author: french set black woman

i think you're a real piece of shit for criticizing your wife's body after she bore you four children and you ate yourself into morbid obesity

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49838542)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:44 PM
Author: multi-colored candlestick maker heaven

Thank you for your honest assessment of my faults, brother. I will internalize them and chew on the bile as it comes up.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2E#49838586)