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Black Duke volleyball player gets taunted by BYU whites calling her a nigger

But there’s no video or evidence other than tweets. Ca...
emerald church building azn
  08/27/22
Lesa Pamplin for County Criminal Court #5 Holy shit, sh...
Submissive Theater Stage Factory Reset Button
  08/27/22
It’s her “goddaughter” not even her grandd...
emerald church building azn
  08/27/22
Grammy! Get off twitter!
Submissive Theater Stage Factory Reset Button
  08/27/22
I don't know what's crazier, an arena full of thousands of f...
violent psychic philosopher-king
  08/27/22
It was too heinous and shocking
razzmatazz heaven
  08/27/22
“Every time” she served
Multi-colored pervert
  08/27/22
And in fucking Provo which isn’t some hillbilly hick t...
emerald church building azn
  08/27/22
There's absolutely zero chance this happened in Provo. Cuc...
idiotic shivering mad cow disease
  08/27/22
She didn’t say it was the whole arena saying it
flesh sickened messiness
  08/27/22
The whole arena abided it, in unified tacit approval, includ...
violent psychic philosopher-king
  08/27/22
#thingsthatneverhappened
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  08/27/22
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Histrionic Fat Ankles
  08/27/22
Nigger.
Irradiated umber fanboi
  08/27/22
Not while she's serving!
razzmatazz heaven
  08/27/22
Either she or the daughter is lying The daughter should be ...
Multi-colored pervert
  08/27/22
I believe it. They’re really racist there. They voted ...
flesh sickened messiness
  08/27/22
What are you on about you retard? Jesus christ can you try t...
exhilarant sienna roommate liquid oxygen
  08/27/22
She's saying there was a conspiracy between BYU, the police ...
violent psychic philosopher-king
  08/27/22
oh is that what she’s saying
flesh sickened messiness
  08/27/22
There would be video of it if it actually happened the way s...
emerald church building azn
  08/27/22
maybe but you guys admittedly think of her that way so what ...
flesh sickened messiness
  08/27/22
Yes, it matters if this person is lying.
emerald church building azn
  08/27/22
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vibrant flickering bawdyhouse
  08/27/22
Why?
flesh sickened messiness
  08/27/22
"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" ...
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Swashbuckling black woman pocket flask
  08/27/22
We think of them that way because they pull shit like this
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  08/27/22
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lascivious alpha
  10/03/22
Is this bluesmoke? Lmao Shut up you stupid nigger
Irradiated umber fanboi
  08/27/22
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lascivious alpha
  10/03/22
Why are you saying it doesn't matter if she's lying?
razzmatazz heaven
  08/27/22
Because she’s right about what matters: you guys WANT ...
flesh sickened messiness
  08/27/22
You keep on saying "you guys" when she is complain...
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  08/27/22
right
flesh sickened messiness
  08/27/22
I have no desire to call her the n-word or any other names s...
violent psychic philosopher-king
  08/27/22
well then this isn’t about you
flesh sickened messiness
  08/27/22
So its ok to lie about what someone or a group of people act...
razzmatazz heaven
  08/27/22
"Think" is key here-- whoever this pumo is keeps i...
exhilarant sienna roommate liquid oxygen
  08/27/22
Provo voted for Trump twice
flesh sickened messiness
  08/27/22
So did a bunch of blacks and hispanics https://www.bbc.com/...
exhilarant sienna roommate liquid oxygen
  08/27/22
I doubt they were voting against their own races like white ...
flesh sickened messiness
  08/27/22
Again, what the fuck are you talking about? Is this BS or PP...
exhilarant sienna roommate liquid oxygen
  08/27/22
Libs really think like this.
burgundy appetizing ladyboy
  08/28/22
CR and even BS is smart enough to understand this, retreatin...
beady-eyed pit ceo
  08/30/22
what if it’s genuinely what they think and feel? how c...
flesh sickened messiness
  08/27/22
Then just call it out if that's your belief and you have sup...
razzmatazz heaven
  08/27/22
It doesn’t make any sense for you to be mad about it
flesh sickened messiness
  08/27/22
Not mad about anything. We're discussing whether lying is OK...
razzmatazz heaven
  08/27/22
No I’m saying if it’s true that they think of he...
flesh sickened messiness
  08/27/22
I think you're a retard. Like full on retarded. Retard.
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if you aren't flame,you are a fucking retard
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Is this blue smoke? Or is there someone else as disingenuous...
blue wonderful gunner area
  08/28/22
Mormons are the least racist white cucks in the universe. T...
idiotic shivering mad cow disease
  08/27/22
Not saying this did or didn't happen,but BYU fans are the fu...
Bespoke keepsake machete plaza
  08/29/22
good window into the shitlib npc mind
Arrogant Heady Stead
  11/07/23
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Jet idea he suggested national
  08/27/22
Wasn’t he unbanned when the truth came to light
flesh sickened messiness
  08/27/22
The truth was always alight. Liars temporarily attempted to ...
violent psychic philosopher-king
  08/27/22
Well, according to BYU, they banned the guy. But didn't ide...
Walnut arousing cruise ship coldplay fan
  08/27/22
It was Joe Smith
idiotic shivering mad cow disease
  08/27/22
This is not who we are. We need to do better. We must do ...
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  08/27/22
you're talking about blacks, right?
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  08/29/22
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costumed quadroon base
  08/27/22
Gotta say that her claim is in a far more credible category ...
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  08/27/22
I doubt anyone was yelling the n-word as she says, but it's ...
Walnut arousing cruise ship coldplay fan
  08/27/22
if someone yelled the n-word from the BYU section i'd expect...
diverse voyeur blood rage
  08/27/22
this
Jet idea he suggested national
  08/27/22
Unless he had Downs and people felt sorry for him
emerald church building azn
  08/28/22
no video though odd case
idiotic shivering mad cow disease
  08/27/22
i said i couldn't discount it, but i can now. tbf, and in...
diverse voyeur blood rage
  08/31/22
Apparently it wasn't an "entire arena." It was one...
thriller maize cuck
  08/27/22
BYU bans fan who yelled slur at Black player on Duke's women...
Pale Sanctuary Patrolman
  08/27/22
Also not clear what "racial slur" he actually said...
Walnut arousing cruise ship coldplay fan
  08/27/22
Sounds like he actually called her a nigger
emerald church building azn
  08/27/22
Whatever may have transpired, we need more affirmative actio...
big shitlib
  08/27/22
i think he was asking "are they REALLY 40x50 BIGGER?&qu...
Glassy Deep Locus Pozpig
  08/30/22
Why are we assuming it was a ‘him’
Exciting Self-centered Doctorate Institution
  08/28/22
https://mobile.twitter.com/TomerAzarly/status/15636217027889...
Exciting Self-centered Doctorate Institution
  08/28/22
(Is the Down’s syndrome kid back there likely to be a ...
Exciting Self-centered Doctorate Institution
  08/28/22
NEVER say Dinger in public
aromatic honey-headed toilet seat
  08/27/22
So the story turned out to be 100% true? Shocker. Cons sudde...
flesh sickened messiness
  08/28/22
lol at them shutting up
Submissive Theater Stage Factory Reset Button
  08/28/22
LOL bro what’s your old moniker? Be honest?
stirring prole
  08/31/22
Hey, where did you go?
exhilarant sienna roommate liquid oxygen
  08/31/22
Apparently the guy who yelled nigger literally has Downs Syn...
emerald church building azn
  08/28/22
Yeah just an entry arena chanting the n word like a braves t...
burgundy appetizing ladyboy
  08/28/22
That’s not what she said nice try
flesh sickened messiness
  08/28/22
The fan was just yelling Cou-Gars, but they thought the fan ...
Jet idea he suggested national
  08/28/22
...
Jet idea he suggested national
  08/28/22
Nowhere in the original tweet did she claim it was the entir...
Submissive Theater Stage Factory Reset Button
  08/28/22
The guy has Downs.
emerald church building azn
  08/28/22
Link?
Jet idea he suggested national
  08/28/22
https://www.ksl.com/article/50449149/provo-filmmaker-fulfill...
Submissive Theater Stage Factory Reset Button
  08/28/22
https://twitter.com/tomerazarly/status/1563621702788993024 ...
emerald church building azn
  08/28/22
lmao
Harsh disgusting set
  08/28/22
Gibberish?
Submissive Theater Stage Factory Reset Button
  08/28/22
The bros next to the downs kid are about to have a real bad ...
Submissive Theater Stage Factory Reset Button
  08/28/22
I would say you got your ass blown out, but it's been long b...
Jet idea he suggested national
  09/01/22
Have all the cons ITT been treated for bloody assholes yet?
flesh sickened messiness
  08/28/22
Oh, you mean because some retard said nigger?
Jet idea he suggested national
  08/28/22
Why are pretending it was a downs kid?
flesh sickened messiness
  08/28/22
Who else could it be? A fan in the student section that isn&...
Jet idea he suggested national
  08/28/22
They wouldn’t ban a downs kid you idiot
flesh sickened messiness
  08/28/22
Wanna bet?
Jet idea he suggested national
  08/28/22
What kind of non BYU student in Utah would go to a BYU women...
emerald church building azn
  08/28/22
You mean it would be convenient for you if it were true but ...
flesh sickened messiness
  08/29/22
occam's razor that's also why the person hasn't been doxx...
ruddy hairy legs
  08/29/22
Seems pretty simple. Libs on Twitter don’t even seem t...
emerald church building azn
  08/29/22
...
Jet idea he suggested national
  08/30/22
lol at moniker. but what's sad isn't that someone yelled ...
Insane Stimulating House
  08/30/22
for sure
Jet idea he suggested national
  08/30/22
But he didn't say the word. They wrongly accused him.
violent psychic philosopher-king
  08/31/22
everyone is garbage.
Insane Stimulating House
  08/31/22
It's something to do, and there are hot 6' bitches in spande...
titillating idiot filthpig
  08/30/22
Prateek!
stirring prole
  08/31/22
Who gives a shit. Biden is literally starting world wards. S...
Trip sable corner skinny woman
  08/30/22
https://www.byucougarchronicle.org/post/exclusive-racist-com...
offensive address private investor
  08/30/22
Prateek Bhopale LOLOLOLOLOL
stirring prole
  08/31/22
...
lascivious alpha
  10/03/22
Reminder to cons: you could have not poasted this thread at ...
flesh sickened messiness
  08/28/22
https://www.byucougarchronicle.org/post/exclusive-racist-com...
offensive address private investor
  08/30/22
odd case
Jet idea he suggested national
  08/30/22
Live & let live @neelwt · Aug 28 Mormonism ma...
Trip sable corner skinny woman
  08/30/22
absolutely devastating
Mustard property
  08/30/22
The only verification for this story is some "judge&quo...
titillating idiot filthpig
  08/30/22
Her entire twitter feed is being racist towards white people...
Jet idea he suggested national
  08/30/22
Yup. Complete radical who looks like a chipmunk. This neve...
titillating idiot filthpig
  08/30/22
College volleyball players should be wearing tank tops, what...
titillating idiot filthpig
  08/30/22
Long sleeves somehow make legs seem nicer, I've noticed
costumed quadroon base
  08/30/22
Hmm interesting
titillating idiot filthpig
  08/30/22
Update?
flesh sickened messiness
  08/30/22
https://www.byucougarchronicle.org/post/exclusive-racist-com...
offensive address private investor
  08/30/22
the whole thing clearly is bullshit and BYU banned a downs k...
Swashbuckling black woman pocket flask
  08/31/22
the downs kid has nothing to do with this
flesh sickened messiness
  08/31/22
yea the real story is that this yet another obviously fake n...
Swashbuckling black woman pocket flask
  08/31/22
...
White business firm love of her life
  08/30/22
Holy fuck Prateek Bhopale LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
stirring prole
  08/31/22
https://www.outkick.com/byu-police-cast-doubt-volleyball-fan...
stirring prole
  08/31/22
Lmao libs? Any updates?
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...
Trip sable corner skinny woman
  09/01/22
...
Histrionic Fat Ankles
  09/01/22
Prateek Bhopale, we’re going to need a response
stirring prole
  09/01/22
Prateek stops responding in any thread he gets destroyed in
Henna narrow-minded brethren station
  09/01/22
So every thread?
stirring prole
  09/01/22
...
Jet idea he suggested national
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...
lascivious alpha
  10/03/22
Update cons?
flesh sickened messiness
  09/01/22
"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" ...
Swashbuckling black woman pocket flask
  09/09/22
update?
Henna narrow-minded brethren station
  09/09/22
...
Trip sable corner skinny woman
  10/12/22
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Swashbuckling black woman pocket flask
  10/12/22
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lascivious alpha
  10/03/22
"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" ...
Swashbuckling black woman pocket flask
  10/06/22
cr
Arrogant Heady Stead
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Arrogant Heady Stead
  02/20/24
great thread
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Date: August 27th, 2022 4:32 PM
Author: emerald church building azn

But there’s no video or evidence other than tweets. Calling a hoax on this one

https://twitter.com/lesapamplin/status/1563568375074136064

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080580)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 4:35 PM
Author: Submissive Theater Stage Factory Reset Button

Lesa Pamplin for County Criminal Court #5

Holy shit, she's completely wrecking her grandkid in her run for office.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080593)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:22 PM
Author: emerald church building azn

It’s her “goddaughter” not even her granddaughter. Total bullshit story

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080776)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 4:34 PM
Author: Submissive Theater Stage Factory Reset Button

Grammy! Get off twitter!

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080592)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 4:43 PM
Author: violent psychic philosopher-king

I don't know what's crazier, an arena full of thousands of fans yelling the n-word at a visiting player or the fact that nobody filmed it despite it apparently happening repeatedly the entire game

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080625)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:00 PM
Author: razzmatazz heaven

It was too heinous and shocking

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080692)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:15 PM
Author: Multi-colored pervert

“Every time” she served

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080748)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:23 PM
Author: emerald church building azn

And in fucking Provo which isn’t some hillbilly hick town either

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080778)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 7:41 PM
Author: idiotic shivering mad cow disease

There's absolutely zero chance this happened in Provo. Cuck mormons are apex nice normies who would NEVER scream the N word. Maybe at U Wyoming.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081202)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:26 PM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

She didn’t say it was the whole arena saying it

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080790)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:28 PM
Author: violent psychic philosopher-king

The whole arena abided it, in unified tacit approval, including the cops and even Duke's coaching staff, serve after serve after serve

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080792)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:02 PM
Author: Lime razzle-dazzle box office laser beams

#thingsthatneverhappened

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080697)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 10:59 PM
Author: Histrionic Fat Ankles



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081829)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:02 PM
Author: Irradiated umber fanboi

Nigger.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080698)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:03 PM
Author: razzmatazz heaven

Not while she's serving!

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080706)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:15 PM
Author: Multi-colored pervert

Either she or the daughter is lying

The daughter should be forced to disavow or lose her spot in university for defamation

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080751)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:26 PM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

I believe it. They’re really racist there. They voted for Trump twice.

Also it makes no sense for you guys to on the one hand be openly racist and call her that behind her back but then get mad if she’s lying about you saying it to her face

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080787)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:29 PM
Author: exhilarant sienna roommate liquid oxygen

What are you on about you retard? Jesus christ can you try to make a good poast just once in your short, fat, shut-in life?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080799)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:31 PM
Author: violent psychic philosopher-king

She's saying there was a conspiracy between BYU, the police and perhaps even Duke's own coaches to allow it to happen over and over, which doesn't make any sense and for which there's no video evidence. Nobody thinks she should actually be called the n-word in public. But they also can tell when a high-profile story is bullshit

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080804)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:35 PM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

oh is that what she’s saying

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080822)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:32 PM
Author: emerald church building azn

There would be video of it if it actually happened the way she said. Maybe someone said something mean, then this woman exaggerated it to “the entire arena called my poor goddaughter a nigger!”

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080815)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:35 PM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

maybe but you guys admittedly think of her that way so what difference does it make if she’s lying about you saying it?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080820)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:37 PM
Author: emerald church building azn

Yes, it matters if this person is lying.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080830)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:42 PM
Author: vibrant flickering bawdyhouse



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080843)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:24 PM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

Why?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080964)



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Date: January 31st, 2023 7:44 PM
Author: Swashbuckling black woman pocket flask

"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" Who Removed His Penis and Balls

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Simon Davis

10/16/14 11:10AM

Filed to: INTERVIEWS

In 1994, a South Florida man who goes by the name Gelding was surgically castrated. In 2011, he had his penis removed as well. He's a "nullo": A cisgender man who removes his external genitalia completely as a form of body modification, and he recently agreed to answer our questions—from "why?" to "what do balls taste like?"

Gelding is a nudist and describes himself as a submissive bear. Apart from his desire to use a pseudonym, he let it all hang out (so to speak) when I reached out to him and graciously answered every question I had.

Is nullo your preferred term to describe yourself and others like you who are castrated and have removed their penis?

Yes, the reason that we use that it is not transgender. It's simply nullification of what you've got. A friend of mine Mack in San Francisco likes to use the term "mascunull", because I remain as masculine as they come with fur and so forth. But I no longer have the parts.

What are some misconceptions people have about nullos?

A few men don't know their own physiology to the point where they think if they lose their balls they can't come any more. And that's false. If you look at the physiology you see that the fluids are made by the seminal vesicles and the prostate. Very little of the fluid and the content is produced in the testes. I still unload.

But the active ingredient for impregnating someone isn't there.

Right.

Do you get a lot of people who think you're trying to become a woman?

Absolutely. And it's mostly the medical profession who sees the sexes as either male or female. And anyone who wants to alter any part of that is in some way suffering from gender dysphoria. They don't like themselves for some reason and they want to change gender. And that's absolutely false.

It's not a dysphoria. I see it in the positive way of working toward something, rather than away from something. Many of the guys instead of putting a negative feel on it see it as a positive. Being castrated is a positive to them. Rather than removing something that they dislike, they are moving in the direction that they want. I went through a long set of psychological evaluation sessions with a psychologist here in town, because that was necessary in order to have the penis removed.

You've previously discussed your 1994 castration. However, I didn't find anything on your penis removal in 2011. Can you talk about that?

I knew I was uncomfortable in having frankly large male parts. I would quite often sit on my own balls because they were loose unless I wore something tight and held them in I would sit on them and squash them. That got me into trouble playing soccer in college when they forced us to wear these hard plastic cups. What happened was I fell on a guy's upright knee with the weight of another player behind me, so two of us fell on the knee. The knee happened to hit the middle of the plastic cup and imploded and tore me up. I was severely injured.

The doctor saved everything but over a period of time the nerves gave me some problems and I had aches in my testicles all the time. When I was in the military service they tried doing a varicose vein removal but that didn't help, it just made matters worse. They thought I was suffering from varicose veins. So after leaving the service I had them removed. And that removed that little problem but I still had the nerve sensations in the penis which woke me up at night. So I could get erect, but it was painful.

So I talked with my urologist and he said the only treatment for that was to make it numb, which is very dangerous because if you make something like that numb then you don't know if it's infected for some reason. Or remove it, but to do that he needs to cover his ass and asked for a psychological evaluation. And my own doctor is a professor at Nova Southeastern University here in. She is the most brilliant doctor I've ever met. So, I asked her about this problem and she was very forthright and said "well, we'll have to treat you". She didn't consider it something that was wrong with me, she said "we have to investigate." I went to see a psychiatrist and he spent a good 90 minutes with me and said "yes, I have just the person that can work with you." So the psychologist did a battery of personality tests and said "you're perfectly fine, your only problem is that you've got these physical problems which work on your nerves." And I said "yeah." And he said "it also works with your personality" because I'm a gay submissive and I always have been and it wasn't working right. So in order to to fix it I worked toward a goal of having things removed. And that was it. I'm working in a positive way to solve my own personal problem.

But was castration something you were contemplating prior to the injury?

Yes. For whatever reason I was always embarrassed by the size of what I had. It didn't fit my personality.

Do you remember when you the fantasy to remove your testicles first occurred?

I had a baby face in high school, there was one of these bullies and he said "you have a man's equipment but you're still a boy" and he squeezed my balls in the shower. He was on the football team, I was on the soccer team showering together and he said "you shouldn't have such big equipment" so he squeezed my balls and at that point it was just a fantasy for me. So how about getting rid of them for some reason?

When did it go from fantasy to aspiration?

It became a fetish thing where I would do sort of more self destructive things with them like putting rubber bands around them and needles through the balls and whatnot. It's a progression which a lot of guys go through. It's something that works on them and they say "Well, how about if we just have them off? Then I won't be bothered by this constant urge to hurt them". And this is where a psychologist gets into the dysphoria. It's very difficult to distinguish whether it's a dislike for something or instead you're working towards something else. I always thought when I was on the beach—I was also on the swim team—and we had Speedos, it was difficult to pack everything in frankly. I would be embarrassed and everybody was looking and here I am and I've got the biggest package and I'm not the biggest guy and I got a whole lot of looks from everybody.

I had a big dick, it got damaged and I was a bottom. I didn't want to use it, I got pushed into using it, I had to take all sorts of medications and was tired of being somebody else's tool.

Broadly speaking, how can someone know that being a nullo is something they actually want to go through with as opposed to something they fantasize about?

That's something really for a psychologist to answer, but in talking to all the guys that I've been talking with, they try to come up with all sorts of different rationalizations to justify it. In my case, my medical situation really didn't justify it because I was just uncomfortable with what I had. It wasn't medically necessary. But I felt that I would be much more comfortable having the issues of having the sensation but not being able to use it well. It was something like a guy having a useless appendage and it's something he has to carry around, and it becomes baggage after a while.

If someone starts/botches the process on their own, what would you recommend they do? Should people use a cover story to avoid getting in trouble?

No. Go to the emergency room. Today, they have been exposed to a lot more of the literature out there than they were 20 years ago. They're not going to be institutionalized. I mean years ago they used to institutionalize guys that were gay.

How would you say the breakdown is between gay and straight men for nullos?

I would have to say it's mostly gays. I don't know of a straight guy who became a nullo.

You had said in a previous interview that for castrations it's about a two to one for gay to straight men that decide to do it.

I've heard of a couple of straight guys who decided that they were making too many babies so they had their balls off so they could take testosterone and continue. I know quite a few bodybuilders both gay and straight whose testes have shrunk because of the steroids they are taking which are bad for their health. So they got castrated and now they're on medically injected testosterone which is good for them. It's not as harmful as oral steroids are or some of the other shit that they're pumping into themselves.

How would you recommend people do their penectomy and castration?

In the last couple of years, my friend Mack from San Francisco ran into Dr. Crane from Brownstein & Crane and he met him, and I don't know how the two of them had the discussion, and then I had a phone interview with Dr. Crane and I explained my situation with him and now Dr. Crane is no longer doing just transgender type of procedures but [also] genital modifications.

So in a way, you educated him.

The protocol that the doctors use for transgender people is called the Harry Benjamin protocol. So for example Dr. Reed in Miami, before you go to his clinic you have to take female hormones for six months and show some development of breasts and whatnot, some feminine characteristics before he will deal with you. And why do that when you simply want to get the genitals removed?

If anything, wouldn't additional testosterone be what you'd need after castration?

Men who get castrated, they do get depressed if they don't start fairly right away on testosterone. Because the falling hormone causes hot flashes first of all, and then the loss of libido. You lose all interest in sex and everything else.

Are there any changes that occur to the body as a result?

Body changes are minimal really. If you lose your balls, you won't lose all your hair.

What about voice? Is that a myth?

Voice doesn't change, no. The larynx is a hard tissue, and the voice box and everything else is a hard tissue. But the timbre of your voice is a factor of the larynx. I sang in the college choir, I know about these things.

One thing I noticed while reading testimonials is that many people seem to try their hand at castration and penectomy but then go to the doctor only if it goes wrong. How much of this would you say is due to the medical profession's reluctance to remove healthy body parts and how much is due to people's general fear of discussing this type of thing with their doctor or therapist?

You know about the Hippocratic oath right? "First do no harm". They have to be convinced that what they are doing is in fact an improvement on your health. Which is why the surgeon is requesting a psychological evaluation. And the psychologist comes back and says "yeah, he's going to be uncomfortable where he is, he's going to be more improved, better mood, better this, better that" and so forth. So from a totality point of view, it's going to get better after he gets modified.

And let me tell you my mood has improved dramatically since going nullo. I don't miss the baggage. I don't miss the fact that I get into sex with a guy, he expects me to perform in some ways, now he doesn't have that expectation. In fact, quite a few guys find it very arousing that they don't have to have that distraction.

Are there other benefits?

Another thing is, guys who are aroused by my situation are very aroused. I've got some guys who are pursuing me a lot. And they just like this idea, because there's nothing there to be in the way. Face to face fucking is very pleasurable. And when they're doing that I actually wet their stomachs with my fluids. And this one guy, he likes to go down on me. He's a bi guy and he said he does this with his girlfriend so he goes down there and starts licking me. And he just loves that idea. He loves the idea that I have a hairy chest and what is to him a very tiny vagina that he can't fuck but he can lick and he can enjoy being the male role. I've even got a straight guy here in town who likes to fuck me because I don't have any male genitals and he doesn't feel threatened by that.

Are there any downsides?

One of the most obvious cons is I have to sit to pee, or I have to use one of these female urination devices. It's an odd funnel shaped device that you can use if there's only a men's urinal. Also, some times I get urinary tract infections. There's a shorter path to the bladder through what I've got now. So I've got to be very careful and keep it clean. I can't get guy fingering me down there because it's the inside of the urethra so it's sensitive.

Do you ever get "phantom dick" syndrome when you are reaching for it out of habit?

A lot of the nerves are bundled on the base of the penis where most of the sensation comes from. It's not along the length of penis but on the base of the penis is where most of the sensations are. And I wake up in the morning with a feeling that I have a big dick that's erect.

In your experience, what percentage of castrations are done by non-medical professionals? How about penectomies? What are the safety risks for each? Would you say one is more difficult than the other for a layman?

I would above three quarters [by non-medical professionals]. And that number is lower than say twenty years ago. There are not as many today.

Which are not as many?

The amateur cutters. There are a lot of wannabes that are successful that manage to stay below the radar of the authorities because they run into trouble because of their lack of skill. Because if you mess up there are problems there. But if you're very careful in choosing the men you work with so that you have very low risk involved, which is age (you don't do old men), you don't do very overweight men, you don't do men who smoke, who don't take drugs and anything else. If you take these fairly low-risk guys and you do it well, then there won't be any problems. Once these guys get castrated, most of them simply become very private and they don't brag about things. They sort of withdraw from pursuing anything else because they've reached their goal.

So is the the percentage of amateur cutters lower today due to more people with medical training performing castrations?

Yes. They are finding that there is a living in this if they do it among other things.

How about with penectomies? I would imagine (and hope!) there's fewer amateurs performing these.

Almost all of them are done by medical professionals. That's tricky, yeah. More tricky. It's sort of major surgery and it's been done by some amateurs. They're fairly good with their surgical techniques. I was actually at one and the guy did a fairly good job but it took a long time and it was a very involved, very slow process. I've heard of only three or four done by cutters in the past and they have left active participation in this.

When you do a penectomy you have to re-route the urethra, yes?

Yes, what I did with this is I knew where I was going with this in 1999 and I contacted my urologist in Hollywood [Florida], an old guy who was just about to retire and I talked to him very carefully and said "in the future I'm going to want the penis removed". And he said "OK, we can do a urethral relocation in the base of the penis".

So how do things like ejaculation and urination work when you've rerouted the urethra and no longer use the penis for them?

With ejaculation, just before you reach the peak, all the fluid is there at the base of the penis, and right before orgasm happens it's the urethra that acts like a rail gun and expels the semen. So when you don't use the penis, there's no force behind it. It just flows out.

What happens to the body parts after removal?

Quite a few [cutters] collect them. They preserve them, they put them in jars. One guy embedded his in plastic and now it's an ornament somewhere. This typically happens when you're in a master/slave dominant/submissive relationship and the submissive gives up his balls to his partner for keepsake. And then you get into this S&M thing where the dominant partner controls and regulates the libido of the submissive. Especially if the submissive is on say androgel where the turnaround time from full sexiness to limp dick is about on the order of a week. The reaction time for the transdermal is very fast. Whereas the injections wear off after two to three weeks. The half life of the testosterone I'm taking is eight days.

You mentioned consumption of body parts in another interview. Is that for real?

It is for real, yes. Some guys do that. Think about the Testy Festy, where they go there and every year there they have concentration of people who are into eating sheep and bull nuts and rocky mountain oysters. I know a few cutters that don't charge anything for their work, the only charge they have is that they get the nuts afterwards.

Is this something that you've tasted?

Yes, as a matter of fact they do taste a little like chicken. Actually I would have to say they taste as much like chicken as they do roast pork. But it all depends on how you cook them. If you cook them in salted butter then they might be saltier than they might otherwise be.

How do you like them cooked?

I went to a cutter's place and he was having an event where he cut a number of guys and I was assisting him there. And what I did is I cooked them up in some butter with some mushrooms. Quite good with a nice red merlot wine.

Cheers to that, Gelding.



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45869778)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 8:27 PM
Author: Swashbuckling black woman pocket flask



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081338)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:42 PM
Author: vibrant flickering bawdyhouse

We think of them that way because they pull shit like this

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080844)



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Date: October 3rd, 2022 2:18 PM
Author: lascivious alpha



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45271985)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:43 PM
Author: Irradiated umber fanboi

Is this bluesmoke? Lmao

Shut up you stupid nigger

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080847)



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Date: October 3rd, 2022 2:18 PM
Author: lascivious alpha



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45271984)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 5:46 PM
Author: razzmatazz heaven

Why are you saying it doesn't matter if she's lying?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080856)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:25 PM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

Because she’s right about what matters: you guys WANT to be able to say that without consequence and WOULD say it if you weren’t cowards

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080968)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:28 PM
Author: exhilarant sienna roommate liquid oxygen

You keep on saying "you guys" when she is complaining about mormons in Provo.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080981)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:31 PM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

right

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080987)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:30 PM
Author: violent psychic philosopher-king

I have no desire to call her the n-word or any other names she would find hurtful

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080982)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:32 PM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

well then this isn’t about you

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080989)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:33 PM
Author: razzmatazz heaven

So its ok to lie about what someone or a group of people actually did if you think they wanted to do that or felt that way?

Seems super subjective

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080993)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:43 PM
Author: exhilarant sienna roommate liquid oxygen

"Think" is key here-- whoever this pumo is keeps interchanging white dorks in provo for bald dorks on xo, which is unfair to both groups. because a subset of xo would call this volleyball player that, she was justified in lying about a totally different set of people calling her that. it is really dumb

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081015)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:44 PM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

Provo voted for Trump twice

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081018)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:45 PM
Author: exhilarant sienna roommate liquid oxygen

So did a bunch of blacks and hispanics

https://www.bbc.com/news/world-us-canada-54972389

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081019)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:54 PM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

I doubt they were voting against their own races like white people were voting against them

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081034)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:55 PM
Author: exhilarant sienna roommate liquid oxygen

Again, what the fuck are you talking about? Is this BS or PP?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081038)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 8:49 AM
Author: burgundy appetizing ladyboy

Libs really think like this.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082861)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 5:58 AM
Author: beady-eyed pit ceo

CR and even BS is smart enough to understand this, retreating to the hilarious but they voted for drumpf argument

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45092071)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:43 PM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

what if it’s genuinely what they think and feel? how can you be mad about calling that out?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081016)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:50 PM
Author: razzmatazz heaven

Then just call it out if that's your belief and you have support for it. I'm not condoning the shit. If your position is justified, you don't need to invent or fabricate lies to convince people. The fact that you feel the need to do that speaks volumes about the merits of your position. If you believe you're right, just provide the facts

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081027)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:55 PM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

It doesn’t make any sense for you to be mad about it

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081036)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:58 PM
Author: razzmatazz heaven

Not mad about anything. We're discussing whether lying is OK in this situation and you're saying yes bc the liar subjectively believes that's the other person's "genuine feelings" and lying is the only way to prove that since they haven't done or said anything

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081046)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 8:58 PM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

No I’m saying if it’s true that they think of her that way then they have no reason to be mad for her calling it out and saying they said what they wish they could say without consequences

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081423)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 8:51 AM
Author: burgundy appetizing ladyboy

I think you're a retard. Like full on retarded. Retard.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082866)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 9:10 AM
Author: razzmatazz heaven



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082907)



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Date: August 25th, 2023 10:12 AM
Author: Arrogant Heady Stead



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#46713910)



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Date: February 20th, 2024 12:40 PM
Author: Arrogant Heady Stead



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#47420146)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 10:27 PM
Author: olive french useless brakes

if you aren't flame,you are a fucking retard

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081703)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 10:40 PM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081754)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 8:50 AM
Author: burgundy appetizing ladyboy



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082864)



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Date: August 25th, 2023 10:12 AM
Author: Arrogant Heady Stead



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#46713911)



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Date: February 20th, 2024 12:39 PM
Author: Arrogant Heady Stead



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#47420145)



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Date: June 21st, 2024 11:06 AM
Author: Arrogant Heady Stead



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#47766348)



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Date: December 13th, 2024 1:21 PM
Author: Arrogant Heady Stead



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#48445036)



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Date: October 15th, 2025 4:37 PM
Author: Arrogant Heady Stead



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#49351488)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 8:21 AM
Author: blue wonderful gunner area

Is this blue smoke? Or is there someone else as disingenuous and intellectually lazy on this board.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082792)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 7:47 PM
Author: idiotic shivering mad cow disease

Mormons are the least racist white cucks in the universe. They what every brown person to convert to their cult.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081237)



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Date: August 29th, 2022 12:49 AM
Author: Bespoke keepsake machete plaza

Not saying this did or didn't happen,but BYU fans are the fucking worst. Complete fucking scumbags. At least the ones that traveled for football.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45086493)



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Date: November 7th, 2023 12:48 PM
Author: Arrogant Heady Stead

good window into the shitlib npc mind

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#47029219)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:17 PM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080943)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:27 PM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

Wasn’t he unbanned when the truth came to light

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080975)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:32 PM
Author: violent psychic philosopher-king

The truth was always alight. Liars temporarily attempted to darken the world and destroy an innocent person, as they always do

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45080988)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:37 PM
Author: Walnut arousing cruise ship coldplay fan

Well, according to BYU, they banned the guy. But didn't identify him. Odd.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081002)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 7:55 PM
Author: idiotic shivering mad cow disease

It was Joe Smith

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081257)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:41 PM
Author: costumed quadroon base

This is not who we are.

We need to do better. We must do the work.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081007)



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Date: August 29th, 2022 11:00 AM
Author: Dark garrison

you're talking about blacks, right?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45087775)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:44 PM
Author: costumed quadroon base



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081017)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 6:55 PM
Author: diverse voyeur blood rage

Gotta say that her claim is in a far more credible category than the typical university-based claim.

and BYU's statement probably indicates that some racist made some nasty comments.

so this one i cannot discount at all.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081039)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 7:43 PM
Author: Walnut arousing cruise ship coldplay fan

I doubt anyone was yelling the n-word as she says, but it's likely there was a guy there who said something mean to her, and was banned by BYU for it.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081215)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 8:09 PM
Author: diverse voyeur blood rage

if someone yelled the n-word from the BYU section i'd expect a severe and immediate crowd reaction against the yeller.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081299)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 8:52 PM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national

this

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081408)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 9:29 AM
Author: emerald church building azn

Unless he had Downs and people felt sorry for him

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082933)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 7:48 PM
Author: idiotic shivering mad cow disease

no video though odd case

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081241)



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Date: August 31st, 2022 3:50 PM
Author: diverse voyeur blood rage

i said i couldn't discount it, but i can now.

tbf, and in my self-defense, the typical university based race hoax occurs in the dead of night or with no one watching. this claim of openly and notorious n-wording seemed completely different. who the fuck claims that when the proof of the act vel non is so public?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45099976)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 7:58 PM
Author: thriller maize cuck

Apparently it wasn't an "entire arena." It was one dude. And BYU gave him a lifetime ban from all athletic events:

https://www.espn.com/college-sports/story/_/id/34471867/byu-bans-fan-yelled-slur-black-player-duke-women-volleyball-team

I would assume that they wouldn't do this unless there was some evidence to support these accusations (either video or the testimony of neighboring fans or something like that).

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081263)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 8:25 PM
Author: Pale Sanctuary Patrolman

BYU bans fan who yelled slur at Black player on Duke's women's volleyball team

Associated Press

PROVO, Utah -- BYU banned a fan who yelled a racial slur at a Black player on Duke's women volleyball team during a match Friday night, the university said in a statement Saturday.

The fan was sitting in the BYU student section but was not a student, and has been banned from all athletic venues on campus, the statement said.

"We will not tolerate behavior of this kind," the statement said. "Specifically, the use of a racial slur at any of our athletic events is absolutely unacceptable and BYU Athletics holds a zero-tolerance approach to this behavior. We wholeheartedly apologize to Duke University and especially its student-athlete competing last night for what they experienced. We want BYU athletic events to provide a safe environment for all, and there is no place for behaviors like this in our venues."

Duke said its match Saturday against Rider was moved from BYU's Smith Fieldhouse to a different venue in Provo.

"First and foremost, our priority is the well-being of Duke student-athletes," Duke athletic director Nina King said in a statement. "They should always have the opportunity to compete in an inclusive, anti-racist environment which promotes equality and fair play. Following extremely unfortunate circumstances at Friday night's match at BYU, we are compelled to shift today's match against Rider to a different location to afford both teams the safest atmosphere for competition."

Lesa Pamplin, a candidate for circuit court judge in Fort Worth, Texas, identified the player subjected to the verbal abuse as her goddaughter.

"My Goddaughter is the only black starter for Dukes volleyball team," Pamplin tweeted from her campaign account, adding that the player was called a racial slur "every time she served. She was threatened by a white male that told her to watch her back going to the team bus. A police officer had to be put by their bench."

An email sent to Pamplin's campaign seeking comment on Saturday was not immediately returned.

Duke and BYU are playing in a four-team, round-robin invitational along with Rider and Washington State. BYU beat Duke 3-1 in Friday's match.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081334)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 9:46 PM
Author: Walnut arousing cruise ship coldplay fan

Also not clear what "racial slur" he actually said. Anything can be considered a racial slur.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081561)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 10:39 PM
Author: emerald church building azn

Sounds like he actually called her a nigger

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081751)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 10:41 PM
Author: big shitlib

Whatever may have transpired, we need more affirmative action and diversity programs

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081757)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 4:26 AM
Author: Glassy Deep Locus Pozpig

i think he was asking "are they REALLY 40x50 BIGGER?" and the crowd noise drowned out most of it

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45092024)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 9:03 AM
Author: Exciting Self-centered Doctorate Institution

Why are we assuming it was a ‘him’

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082898)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 9:06 AM
Author: Exciting Self-centered Doctorate Institution

https://mobile.twitter.com/TomerAzarly/status/1563621702788993024

A little video and photographic evidence, doesn’t really narrow down what happened that much

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082905)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 9:10 AM
Author: Exciting Self-centered Doctorate Institution

(Is the Down’s syndrome kid back there likely to be a BYU student?)

https://mobile.twitter.com/TomerAzarly/status/1563621702788993024/photo/1

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082906)



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Date: August 27th, 2022 9:47 PM
Author: aromatic honey-headed toilet seat

NEVER say Dinger in public

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45081567)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 8:46 AM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

So the story turned out to be 100% true? Shocker. Cons suddenly silent ITT

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082853)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 8:50 AM
Author: Submissive Theater Stage Factory Reset Button

lol at them shutting up

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082865)



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Date: August 31st, 2022 7:33 AM
Author: stirring prole

LOL bro what’s your old moniker? Be honest?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45097820)



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Date: August 31st, 2022 3:52 PM
Author: exhilarant sienna roommate liquid oxygen

Hey, where did you go?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45099988)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 8:52 AM
Author: emerald church building azn

Apparently the guy who yelled nigger literally has Downs Syndrome.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082869)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 8:53 AM
Author: burgundy appetizing ladyboy

Yeah just an entry arena chanting the n word like a braves tomahawk rally

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082873)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 8:55 AM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

That’s not what she said nice try

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082878)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 9:00 AM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national

The fan was just yelling Cou-Gars, but they thought the fan was saying Coooon Gurrrrl

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082891)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 8:58 AM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082886)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 9:02 AM
Author: Submissive Theater Stage Factory Reset Button

Nowhere in the original tweet did she claim it was the entire arena. Every single factual statement has apparently been confirmed:

"My Goddaughter is the only black starter for Dukes volleyball team. While playing yesterday, she was called a nigger every time she served. She was threatened by a white male that told her to watch her back going to the team bus. A police officer had to be put by their bench."

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082893)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 9:03 AM
Author: emerald church building azn

The guy has Downs.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082900)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 9:05 AM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national

Link?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082903)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 9:11 AM
Author: Submissive Theater Stage Factory Reset Button

https://www.ksl.com/article/50449149/provo-filmmaker-fulfilling-promise-to-brother-with-down-syndrome-by-making-him-a-movie-star-

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082909)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 9:13 AM
Author: emerald church building azn

https://twitter.com/tomerazarly/status/1563621702788993024

Look at the photos and pick out the obvious non student

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082912)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 11:54 AM
Author: Harsh disgusting set

lmao

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45083364)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 9:11 AM
Author: Submissive Theater Stage Factory Reset Button

Gibberish?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082908)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 9:13 AM
Author: Submissive Theater Stage Factory Reset Button

The bros next to the downs kid are about to have a real bad time: https://pbs.twimg.com/media/FbMZpksUsAEGlbN?format=jpg&name=large

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45082913)



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Date: September 1st, 2022 9:11 AM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national

I would say you got your ass blown out, but it's been long blown out irreparably.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45103166)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 11:09 AM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

Have all the cons ITT been treated for bloody assholes yet?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45083208)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 11:09 AM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national

Oh, you mean because some retard said nigger?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45083212)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 11:12 AM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

Why are pretending it was a downs kid?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45083219)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 11:16 AM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national

Who else could it be? A fan in the student section that isn’t a student.

https://pbs.twimg.com/media/FbMZpksUsAEGlbN?format=jpg&name=large

No normal person would yell those things

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45083231)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 11:37 AM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

They wouldn’t ban a downs kid you idiot

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45083301)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 11:39 AM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national

Wanna bet?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45083309)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 3:12 PM
Author: emerald church building azn

What kind of non BYU student in Utah would go to a BYU women’s volleyball match? Seems very likely the simpleton Downs kid was the person wilding out calling her a nigger in public.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45083994)



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Date: August 29th, 2022 10:20 AM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

You mean it would be convenient for you if it were true but there’s absolutely nothing to suggest that is the case

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45087609)



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Date: August 29th, 2022 10:33 AM
Author: ruddy hairy legs

occam's razor

that's also why the person hasn't been doxxed

sorry lib, but you're still living in the 1950 Deep South if you think a white college kid called her the n-word. in fact, we know it wasn't a college kid.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45087640)



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Date: August 29th, 2022 10:39 AM
Author: emerald church building azn

Seems pretty simple. Libs on Twitter don’t even seem to be demanding to know who was yelling at her. They already know the answer but want to have this vague story continue circulating. They know people would feel differently if they knew it was a Downs kid.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45087670)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 12:35 AM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45091673)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 12:37 AM
Author: Insane Stimulating House

lol at moniker.

but what's sad isn't that someone yelled nigger. whatever. we deal with that kind of shit and it's expected in certain environments. what's sad is some down's syndrome kid even knows that word. that's a failing of the society around him.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45091685)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 2:07 AM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national

for sure

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45091850)



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Date: August 31st, 2022 1:32 AM
Author: violent psychic philosopher-king

But he didn't say the word. They wrongly accused him.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45097432)



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Date: August 31st, 2022 9:54 AM
Author: Insane Stimulating House

everyone is garbage.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45098142)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 4:00 AM
Author: titillating idiot filthpig

It's something to do, and there are hot 6' bitches in spandex?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45092005)



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Date: August 31st, 2022 7:31 AM
Author: stirring prole

Prateek!

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45097815)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 3:32 AM
Author: Trip sable corner skinny woman

Who gives a shit. Biden is literally starting world wards. Some Down's kid calls a nigger a nigger. OH NO!

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45091984)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 10:58 PM
Author: offensive address private investor

https://www.byucougarchronicle.org/post/exclusive-racist-comments-at-byu-volleyball-game-never-happened-sources-suggest

?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45096790)



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Date: August 31st, 2022 7:19 AM
Author: stirring prole

Prateek Bhopale LOLOLOLOLOL

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45097788)



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Date: October 3rd, 2022 2:22 PM
Author: lascivious alpha



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45272007)



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Date: August 28th, 2022 11:38 AM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

Reminder to cons: you could have not poasted this thread at all and you would be better off

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45083302)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 10:54 PM
Author: offensive address private investor

https://www.byucougarchronicle.org/post/exclusive-racist-comments-at-byu-volleyball-game-never-happened-sources-suggest

?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45096772)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 11:06 PM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national

odd case

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45096815)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 3:28 AM
Author: Trip sable corner skinny woman

Live & let live

@neelwt

·

Aug 28

Mormonism may be the whitest religion of all. Utah is one of the least diverse states in the nation. And, yes, the racist stain of Trumpism has seeped into every corner of American society. Perhaps more accurately, it was already there, activated by Trumpism.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45091982)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 3:54 AM
Author: Mustard property

absolutely devastating

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45092001)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 4:01 AM
Author: titillating idiot filthpig

The only verification for this story is some "judge" from Texas who claims to be the player's godmother, and wasn't even at the game. NEVER HAPPENED. But they'll call us all "racist" again to win the midterms. That's what this is.

Of course the supercucks at BYU immediately apologize and cave.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45092008)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 4:33 AM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national

Her entire twitter feed is being racist towards white people and asians fwiw

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45092028)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 4:35 AM
Author: titillating idiot filthpig

Yup. Complete radical who looks like a chipmunk. This never happened and BYU cucked like the Mormon cucks they are.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45092031)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 4:53 AM
Author: titillating idiot filthpig

College volleyball players should be wearing tank tops, what's with the long sleeves

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45092038)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 7:27 PM
Author: costumed quadroon base

Long sleeves somehow make legs seem nicer, I've noticed

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45095463)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 10:58 PM
Author: titillating idiot filthpig

Hmm interesting

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45096791)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 10:29 AM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

Update?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45092624)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 10:55 PM
Author: offensive address private investor

https://www.byucougarchronicle.org/post/exclusive-racist-comments-at-byu-volleyball-game-never-happened-sources-suggest

?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45096775)



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Date: August 31st, 2022 9:33 AM
Author: Swashbuckling black woman pocket flask

the whole thing clearly is bullshit and BYU banned a downs kid who probably didn't even say anything bad because they are a bunch of mormon cucks.

not even worth shit eatering you itt because you are doing a great enough job showing what an unhinged retard you are.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45098070)



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Date: August 31st, 2022 9:49 AM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

the downs kid has nothing to do with this

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45098121)



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Date: August 31st, 2022 9:59 AM
Author: Swashbuckling black woman pocket flask

yea the real story is that this yet another obviously fake non-incident incident that morons like you are lapping up

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45098158)



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Date: August 30th, 2022 11:08 PM
Author: White business firm love of her life



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45096823)



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Date: August 31st, 2022 7:19 AM
Author: stirring prole

Holy fuck Prateek Bhopale LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45097786)



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Date: August 31st, 2022 3:13 PM
Author: stirring prole

https://www.outkick.com/byu-police-cast-doubt-volleyball-fan-used-n-word-duke/

Prateek, come out to play!

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45099756)



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Date: August 31st, 2022 8:41 PM
Author: talented boltzmann indian lodge

Lmao libs? Any updates?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45101297)



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Date: September 1st, 2022 5:06 AM
Author: Trip sable corner skinny woman



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45102787)



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Date: September 1st, 2022 7:58 AM
Author: Histrionic Fat Ankles



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45102953)



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Date: September 1st, 2022 7:59 AM
Author: stirring prole

Prateek Bhopale, we’re going to need a response

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45102958)



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Date: September 1st, 2022 8:02 AM
Author: Henna narrow-minded brethren station

Prateek stops responding in any thread he gets destroyed in

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45102961)



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Date: September 1st, 2022 8:12 AM
Author: stirring prole

So every thread?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45102984)



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Date: September 1st, 2022 9:10 AM
Author: Jet idea he suggested national



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45103163)



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Date: October 3rd, 2022 2:22 PM
Author: lascivious alpha



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45272012)



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Date: September 1st, 2022 11:13 AM
Author: flesh sickened messiness

Update cons?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#45103610)



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Date: September 9th, 2022 11:24 AM
Author: Swashbuckling black woman pocket flask

"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" Who Removed His Penis and Balls

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Simon Davis

10/16/14 11:10AM

Filed to: INTERVIEWS

In 1994, a South Florida man who goes by the name Gelding was surgically castrated. In 2011, he had his penis removed as well. He's a "nullo": A cisgender man who removes his external genitalia completely as a form of body modification, and he recently agreed to answer our questions—from "why?" to "what do balls taste like?"

Gelding is a nudist and describes himself as a submissive bear. Apart from his desire to use a pseudonym, he let it all hang out (so to speak) when I reached out to him and graciously answered every question I had.

Is nullo your preferred term to describe yourself and others like you who are castrated and have removed their penis?

Yes, the reason that we use that it is not transgender. It's simply nullification of what you've got. A friend of mine Mack in San Francisco likes to use the term "mascunull", because I remain as masculine as they come with fur and so forth. But I no longer have the parts.

What are some misconceptions people have about nullos?

A few men don't know their own physiology to the point where they think if they lose their balls they can't come any more. And that's false. If you look at the physiology you see that the fluids are made by the seminal vesicles and the prostate. Very little of the fluid and the content is produced in the testes. I still unload.

But the active ingredient for impregnating someone isn't there.

Right.

Do you get a lot of people who think you're trying to become a woman?

Absolutely. And it's mostly the medical profession who sees the sexes as either male or female. And anyone who wants to alter any part of that is in some way suffering from gender dysphoria. They don't like themselves for some reason and they want to change gender. And that's absolutely false.

It's not a dysphoria. I see it in the positive way of working toward something, rather than away from something. Many of the guys instead of putting a negative feel on it see it as a positive. Being castrated is a positive to them. Rather than removing something that they dislike, they are moving in the direction that they want. I went through a long set of psychological evaluation sessions with a psychologist here in town, because that was necessary in order to have the penis removed.

You've previously discussed your 1994 castration. However, I didn't find anything on your penis removal in 2011. Can you talk about that?

I knew I was uncomfortable in having frankly large male parts. I would quite often sit on my own balls because they were loose unless I wore something tight and held them in I would sit on them and squash them. That got me into trouble playing soccer in college when they forced us to wear these hard plastic cups. What happened was I fell on a guy's upright knee with the weight of another player behind me, so two of us fell on the knee. The knee happened to hit the middle of the plastic cup and imploded and tore me up. I was severely injured.

The doctor saved everything but over a period of time the nerves gave me some problems and I had aches in my testicles all the time. When I was in the military service they tried doing a varicose vein removal but that didn't help, it just made matters worse. They thought I was suffering from varicose veins. So after leaving the service I had them removed. And that removed that little problem but I still had the nerve sensations in the penis which woke me up at night. So I could get erect, but it was painful.

So I talked with my urologist and he said the only treatment for that was to make it numb, which is very dangerous because if you make something like that numb then you don't know if it's infected for some reason. Or remove it, but to do that he needs to cover his ass and asked for a psychological evaluation. And my own doctor is a professor at Nova Southeastern University here in. She is the most brilliant doctor I've ever met. So, I asked her about this problem and she was very forthright and said "well, we'll have to treat you". She didn't consider it something that was wrong with me, she said "we have to investigate." I went to see a psychiatrist and he spent a good 90 minutes with me and said "yes, I have just the person that can work with you." So the psychologist did a battery of personality tests and said "you're perfectly fine, your only problem is that you've got these physical problems which work on your nerves." And I said "yeah." And he said "it also works with your personality" because I'm a gay submissive and I always have been and it wasn't working right. So in order to to fix it I worked toward a goal of having things removed. And that was it. I'm working in a positive way to solve my own personal problem.

But was castration something you were contemplating prior to the injury?

Yes. For whatever reason I was always embarrassed by the size of what I had. It didn't fit my personality.

Do you remember when you the fantasy to remove your testicles first occurred?

I had a baby face in high school, there was one of these bullies and he said "you have a man's equipment but you're still a boy" and he squeezed my balls in the shower. He was on the football team, I was on the soccer team showering together and he said "you shouldn't have such big equipment" so he squeezed my balls and at that point it was just a fantasy for me. So how about getting rid of them for some reason?

When did it go from fantasy to aspiration?

It became a fetish thing where I would do sort of more self destructive things with them like putting rubber bands around them and needles through the balls and whatnot. It's a progression which a lot of guys go through. It's something that works on them and they say "Well, how about if we just have them off? Then I won't be bothered by this constant urge to hurt them". And this is where a psychologist gets into the dysphoria. It's very difficult to distinguish whether it's a dislike for something or instead you're working towards something else. I always thought when I was on the beach—I was also on the swim team—and we had Speedos, it was difficult to pack everything in frankly. I would be embarrassed and everybody was looking and here I am and I've got the biggest package and I'm not the biggest guy and I got a whole lot of looks from everybody.

I had a big dick, it got damaged and I was a bottom. I didn't want to use it, I got pushed into using it, I had to take all sorts of medications and was tired of being somebody else's tool.

Broadly speaking, how can someone know that being a nullo is something they actually want to go through with as opposed to something they fantasize about?

That's something really for a psychologist to answer, but in talking to all the guys that I've been talking with, they try to come up with all sorts of different rationalizations to justify it. In my case, my medical situation really didn't justify it because I was just uncomfortable with what I had. It wasn't medically necessary. But I felt that I would be much more comfortable having the issues of having the sensation but not being able to use it well. It was something like a guy having a useless appendage and it's something he has to carry around, and it becomes baggage after a while.

If someone starts/botches the process on their own, what would you recommend they do? Should people use a cover story to avoid getting in trouble?

No. Go to the emergency room. Today, they have been exposed to a lot more of the literature out there than they were 20 years ago. They're not going to be institutionalized. I mean years ago they used to institutionalize guys that were gay.

How would you say the breakdown is between gay and straight men for nullos?

I would have to say it's mostly gays. I don't know of a straight guy who became a nullo.

You had said in a previous interview that for castrations it's about a two to one for gay to straight men that decide to do it.

I've heard of a couple of straight guys who decided that they were making too many babies so they had their balls off so they could take testosterone and continue. I know quite a few bodybuilders both gay and straight whose testes have shrunk because of the steroids they are taking which are bad for their health. So they got castrated and now they're on medically injected testosterone which is good for them. It's not as harmful as oral steroids are or some of the other shit that they're pumping into themselves.

How would you recommend people do their penectomy and castration?

In the last couple of years, my friend Mack from San Francisco ran into Dr. Crane from Brownstein & Crane and he met him, and I don't know how the two of them had the discussion, and then I had a phone interview with Dr. Crane and I explained my situation with him and now Dr. Crane is no longer doing just transgender type of procedures but [also] genital modifications.

So in a way, you educated him.

The protocol that the doctors use for transgender people is called the Harry Benjamin protocol. So for example Dr. Reed in Miami, before you go to his clinic you have to take female hormones for six months and show some development of breasts and whatnot, some feminine characteristics before he will deal with you. And why do that when you simply want to get the genitals removed?

If anything, wouldn't additional testosterone be what you'd need after castration?

Men who get castrated, they do get depressed if they don't start fairly right away on testosterone. Because the falling hormone causes hot flashes first of all, and then the loss of libido. You lose all interest in sex and everything else.

Are there any changes that occur to the body as a result?

Body changes are minimal really. If you lose your balls, you won't lose all your hair.

What about voice? Is that a myth?

Voice doesn't change, no. The larynx is a hard tissue, and the voice box and everything else is a hard tissue. But the timbre of your voice is a factor of the larynx. I sang in the college choir, I know about these things.

One thing I noticed while reading testimonials is that many people seem to try their hand at castration and penectomy but then go to the doctor only if it goes wrong. How much of this would you say is due to the medical profession's reluctance to remove healthy body parts and how much is due to people's general fear of discussing this type of thing with their doctor or therapist?

You know about the Hippocratic oath right? "First do no harm". They have to be convinced that what they are doing is in fact an improvement on your health. Which is why the surgeon is requesting a psychological evaluation. And the psychologist comes back and says "yeah, he's going to be uncomfortable where he is, he's going to be more improved, better mood, better this, better that" and so forth. So from a totality point of view, it's going to get better after he gets modified.

And let me tell you my mood has improved dramatically since going nullo. I don't miss the baggage. I don't miss the fact that I get into sex with a guy, he expects me to perform in some ways, now he doesn't have that expectation. In fact, quite a few guys find it very arousing that they don't have to have that distraction.

Are there other benefits?

Another thing is, guys who are aroused by my situation are very aroused. I've got some guys who are pursuing me a lot. And they just like this idea, because there's nothing there to be in the way. Face to face fucking is very pleasurable. And when they're doing that I actually wet their stomachs with my fluids. And this one guy, he likes to go down on me. He's a bi guy and he said he does this with his girlfriend so he goes down there and starts licking me. And he just loves that idea. He loves the idea that I have a hairy chest and what is to him a very tiny vagina that he can't fuck but he can lick and he can enjoy being the male role. I've even got a straight guy here in town who likes to fuck me because I don't have any male genitals and he doesn't feel threatened by that.

Are there any downsides?

One of the most obvious cons is I have to sit to pee, or I have to use one of these female urination devices. It's an odd funnel shaped device that you can use if there's only a men's urinal. Also, some times I get urinary tract infections. There's a shorter path to the bladder through what I've got now. So I've got to be very careful and keep it clean. I can't get guy fingering me down there because it's the inside of the urethra so it's sensitive.

Do you ever get "phantom dick" syndrome when you are reaching for it out of habit?

A lot of the nerves are bundled on the base of the penis where most of the sensation comes from. It's not along the length of penis but on the base of the penis is where most of the sensations are. And I wake up in the morning with a feeling that I have a big dick that's erect.

In your experience, what percentage of castrations are done by non-medical professionals? How about penectomies? What are the safety risks for each? Would you say one is more difficult than the other for a layman?

I would above three quarters [by non-medical professionals]. And that number is lower than say twenty years ago. There are not as many today.

Which are not as many?

The amateur cutters. There are a lot of wannabes that are successful that manage to stay below the radar of the authorities because they run into trouble because of their lack of skill. Because if you mess up there are problems there. But if you're very careful in choosing the men you work with so that you have very low risk involved, which is age (you don't do old men), you don't do very overweight men, you don't do men who smoke, who don't take drugs and anything else. If you take these fairly low-risk guys and you do it well, then there won't be any problems. Once these guys get castrated, most of them simply become very private and they don't brag about things. They sort of withdraw from pursuing anything else because they've reached their goal.

So is the the percentage of amateur cutters lower today due to more people with medical training performing castrations?

Yes. They are finding that there is a living in this if they do it among other things.

How about with penectomies? I would imagine (and hope!) there's fewer amateurs performing these.

Almost all of them are done by medical professionals. That's tricky, yeah. More tricky. It's sort of major surgery and it's been done by some amateurs. They're fairly good with their surgical techniques. I was actually at one and the guy did a fairly good job but it took a long time and it was a very involved, very slow process. I've heard of only three or four done by cutters in the past and they have left active participation in this.

When you do a penectomy you have to re-route the urethra, yes?

Yes, what I did with this is I knew where I was going with this in 1999 and I contacted my urologist in Hollywood [Florida], an old guy who was just about to retire and I talked to him very carefully and said "in the future I'm going to want the penis removed". And he said "OK, we can do a urethral relocation in the base of the penis".

So how do things like ejaculation and urination work when you've rerouted the urethra and no longer use the penis for them?

With ejaculation, just before you reach the peak, all the fluid is there at the base of the penis, and right before orgasm happens it's the urethra that acts like a rail gun and expels the semen. So when you don't use the penis, there's no force behind it. It just flows out.

What happens to the body parts after removal?

Quite a few [cutters] collect them. They preserve them, they put them in jars. One guy embedded his in plastic and now it's an ornament somewhere. This typically happens when you're in a master/slave dominant/submissive relationship and the submissive gives up his balls to his partner for keepsake. And then you get into this S&M thing where the dominant partner controls and regulates the libido of the submissive. Especially if the submissive is on say androgel where the turnaround time from full sexiness to limp dick is about on the order of a week. The reaction time for the transdermal is very fast. Whereas the injections wear off after two to three weeks. The half life of the testosterone I'm taking is eight days.

You mentioned consumption of body parts in another interview. Is that for real?

It is for real, yes. Some guys do that. Think about the Testy Festy, where they go there and every year there they have concentration of people who are into eating sheep and bull nuts and rocky mountain oysters. I know a few cutters that don't charge anything for their work, the only charge they have is that they get the nuts afterwards.

Is this something that you've tasted?

Yes, as a matter of fact they do taste a little like chicken. Actually I would have to say they taste as much like chicken as they do roast pork. But it all depends on how you cook them. If you cook them in salted butter then they might be saltier than they might otherwise be.

How do you like them cooked?

I went to a cutter's place and he was having an event where he cut a number of guys and I was assisting him there. And what I did is I cooked them up in some butter with some mushrooms. Quite good with a nice red merlot wine.

Cheers to that, Gelding.

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"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" Who Removed His Penis and Balls

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In 1994, a South Florida man who goes by the name Gelding was surgically castrated. In 2011, he had his penis removed as well. He's a "nullo": A cisgender man who removes his external genitalia completely as a form of body modification, and he recently agreed to answer our questions—from "why?" to "what do balls taste like?"

Gelding is a nudist and describes himself as a submissive bear. Apart from his desire to use a pseudonym, he let it all hang out (so to speak) when I reached out to him and graciously answered every question I had.

Is nullo your preferred term to describe yourself and others like you who are castrated and have removed their penis?

Yes, the reason that we use that it is not transgender. It's simply nullification of what you've got. A friend of mine Mack in San Francisco likes to use the term "mascunull", because I remain as masculine as they come with fur and so forth. But I no longer have the parts.

What are some misconceptions people have about nullos?

A few men don't know their own physiology to the point where they think if they lose their balls they can't come any more. And that's false. If you look at the physiology you see that the fluids are made by the seminal vesicles and the prostate. Very little of the fluid and the content is produced in the testes. I still unload.

But the active ingredient for impregnating someone isn't there.

Right.

Do you get a lot of people who think you're trying to become a woman?

Absolutely. And it's mostly the medical profession who sees the sexes as either male or female. And anyone who wants to alter any part of that is in some way suffering from gender dysphoria. They don't like themselves for some reason and they want to change gender. And that's absolutely false.

It's not a dysphoria. I see it in the positive way of working toward something, rather than away from something. Many of the guys instead of putting a negative feel on it see it as a positive. Being castrated is a positive to them. Rather than removing something that they dislike, they are moving in the direction that they want. I went through a long set of psychological evaluation sessions with a psychologist here in town, because that was necessary in order to have the penis removed.

You've previously discussed your 1994 castration. However, I didn't find anything on your penis removal in 2011. Can you talk about that?

I knew I was uncomfortable in having frankly large male parts. I would quite often sit on my own balls because they were loose unless I wore something tight and held them in I would sit on them and squash them. That got me into trouble playing soccer in college when they forced us to wear these hard plastic cups. What happened was I fell on a guy's upright knee with the weight of another player behind me, so two of us fell on the knee. The knee happened to hit the middle of the plastic cup and imploded and tore me up. I was severely injured.

The doctor saved everything but over a period of time the nerves gave me some problems and I had aches in my testicles all the time. When I was in the military service they tried doing a varicose vein removal but that didn't help, it just made matters worse. They thought I was suffering from varicose veins. So after leaving the service I had them removed. And that removed that little problem but I still had the nerve sensations in the penis which woke me up at night. So I could get erect, but it was painful.

So I talked with my urologist and he said the only treatment for that was to make it numb, which is very dangerous because if you make something like that numb then you don't know if it's infected for some reason. Or remove it, but to do that he needs to cover his ass and asked for a psychological evaluation. And my own doctor is a professor at Nova Southeastern University here in. She is the most brilliant doctor I've ever met. So, I asked her about this problem and she was very forthright and said "well, we'll have to treat you". She didn't consider it something that was wrong with me, she said "we have to investigate." I went to see a psychiatrist and he spent a good 90 minutes with me and said "yes, I have just the person that can work with you." So the psychologist did a battery of personality tests and said "you're perfectly fine, your only problem is that you've got these physical problems which work on your nerves." And I said "yeah." And he said "it also works with your personality" because I'm a gay submissive and I always have been and it wasn't working right. So in order to to fix it I worked toward a goal of having things removed. And that was it. I'm working in a positive way to solve my own personal problem.

But was castration something you were contemplating prior to the injury?

Yes. For whatever reason I was always embarrassed by the size of what I had. It didn't fit my personality.

Do you remember when you the fantasy to remove your testicles first occurred?

I had a baby face in high school, there was one of these bullies and he said "you have a man's equipment but you're still a boy" and he squeezed my balls in the shower. He was on the football team, I was on the soccer team showering together and he said "you shouldn't have such big equipment" so he squeezed my balls and at that point it was just a fantasy for me. So how about getting rid of them for some reason?

When did it go from fantasy to aspiration?

It became a fetish thing where I would do sort of more self destructive things with them like putting rubber bands around them and needles through the balls and whatnot. It's a progression which a lot of guys go through. It's something that works on them and they say "Well, how about if we just have them off? Then I won't be bothered by this constant urge to hurt them". And this is where a psychologist gets into the dysphoria. It's very difficult to distinguish whether it's a dislike for something or instead you're working towards something else. I always thought when I was on the beach—I was also on the swim team—and we had Speedos, it was difficult to pack everything in frankly. I would be embarrassed and everybody was looking and here I am and I've got the biggest package and I'm not the biggest guy and I got a whole lot of looks from everybody.

I had a big dick, it got damaged and I was a bottom. I didn't want to use it, I got pushed into using it, I had to take all sorts of medications and was tired of being somebody else's tool.

Broadly speaking, how can someone know that being a nullo is something they actually want to go through with as opposed to something they fantasize about?

That's something really for a psychologist to answer, but in talking to all the guys that I've been talking with, they try to come up with all sorts of different rationalizations to justify it. In my case, my medical situation really didn't justify it because I was just uncomfortable with what I had. It wasn't medically necessary. But I felt that I would be much more comfortable having the issues of having the sensation but not being able to use it well. It was something like a guy having a useless appendage and it's something he has to carry around, and it becomes baggage after a while.

If someone starts/botches the process on their own, what would you recommend they do? Should people use a cover story to avoid getting in trouble?

No. Go to the emergency room. Today, they have been exposed to a lot more of the literature out there than they were 20 years ago. They're not going to be institutionalized. I mean years ago they used to institutionalize guys that were gay.

How would you say the breakdown is between gay and straight men for nullos?

I would have to say it's mostly gays. I don't know of a straight guy who became a nullo.

You had said in a previous interview that for castrations it's about a two to one for gay to straight men that decide to do it.

I've heard of a couple of straight guys who decided that they were making too many babies so they had their balls off so they could take testosterone and continue. I know quite a few bodybuilders both gay and straight whose testes have shrunk because of the steroids they are taking which are bad for their health. So they got castrated and now they're on medically injected testosterone which is good for them. It's not as harmful as oral steroids are or some of the other shit that they're pumping into themselves.

How would you recommend people do their penectomy and castration?

In the last couple of years, my friend Mack from San Francisco ran into Dr. Crane from Brownstein & Crane and he met him, and I don't know how the two of them had the discussion, and then I had a phone interview with Dr. Crane and I explained my situation with him and now Dr. Crane is no longer doing just transgender type of procedures but [also] genital modifications.

So in a way, you educated him.

The protocol that the doctors use for transgender people is called the Harry Benjamin protocol. So for example Dr. Reed in Miami, before you go to his clinic you have to take female hormones for six months and show some development of breasts and whatnot, some feminine characteristics before he will deal with you. And why do that when you simply want to get the genitals removed?

If anything, wouldn't additional testosterone be what you'd need after castration?

Men who get castrated, they do get depressed if they don't start fairly right away on testosterone. Because the falling hormone causes hot flashes first of all, and then the loss of libido. You lose all interest in sex and everything else.

Are there any changes that occur to the body as a result?

Body changes are minimal really. If you lose your balls, you won't lose all your hair.

What about voice? Is that a myth?

Voice doesn't change, no. The larynx is a hard tissue, and the voice box and everything else is a hard tissue. But the timbre of your voice is a factor of the larynx. I sang in the college choir, I know about these things.

One thing I noticed while reading testimonials is that many people seem to try their hand at castration and penectomy but then go to the doctor only if it goes wrong. How much of this would you say is due to the medical profession's reluctance to remove healthy body parts and how much is due to people's general fear of discussing this type of thing with their doctor or therapist?

You know about the Hippocratic oath right? "First do no harm". They have to be convinced that what they are doing is in fact an improvement on your health. Which is why the surgeon is requesting a psychological evaluation. And the psychologist comes back and says "yeah, he's going to be uncomfortable where he is, he's going to be more improved, better mood, better this, better that" and so forth. So from a totality point of view, it's going to get better after he gets modified.

And let me tell you my mood has improved dramatically since going nullo. I don't miss the baggage. I don't miss the fact that I get into sex with a guy, he expects me to perform in some ways, now he doesn't have that expectation. In fact, quite a few guys find it very arousing that they don't have to have that distraction.

Are there other benefits?

Another thing is, guys who are aroused by my situation are very aroused. I've got some guys who are pursuing me a lot. And they just like this idea, because there's nothing there to be in the way. Face to face fucking is very pleasurable. And when they're doing that I actually wet their stomachs with my fluids. And this one guy, he likes to go down on me. He's a bi guy and he said he does this with his girlfriend so he goes down there and starts licking me. And he just loves that idea. He loves the idea that I have a hairy chest and what is to him a very tiny vagina that he can't fuck but he can lick and he can enjoy being the male role. I've even got a straight guy here in town who likes to fuck me because I don't have any male genitals and he doesn't feel threatened by that.

Are there any downsides?

One of the most obvious cons is I have to sit to pee, or I have to use one of these female urination devices. It's an odd funnel shaped device that you can use if there's only a men's urinal. Also, some times I get urinary tract infections. There's a shorter path to the bladder through what I've got now. So I've got to be very careful and keep it clean. I can't get guy fingering me down there because it's the inside of the urethra so it's sensitive.

Do you ever get "phantom dick" syndrome when you are reaching for it out of habit?

A lot of the nerves are bundled on the base of the penis where most of the sensation comes from. It's not along the length of penis but on the base of the penis is where most of the sensations are. And I wake up in the morning with a feeling that I have a big dick that's erect.

In your experience, what percentage of castrations are done by non-medical professionals? How about penectomies? What are the safety risks for each? Would you say one is more difficult than the other for a layman?

I would above three quarters [by non-medical professionals]. And that number is lower than say twenty years ago. There are not as many today.

Which are not as many?

The amateur cutters. There are a lot of wannabes that are successful that manage to stay below the radar of the authorities because they run into trouble because of their lack of skill. Because if you mess up there are problems there. But if you're very careful in choosing the men you work with so that you have very low risk involved, which is age (you don't do old men), you don't do very overweight men, you don't do men who smoke, who don't take drugs and anything else. If you take these fairly low-risk guys and you do it well, then there won't be any problems. Once these guys get castrated, most of them simply become very private and they don't brag about things. They sort of withdraw from pursuing anything else because they've reached their goal.

So is the the percentage of amateur cutters lower today due to more people with medical training performing castrations?

Yes. They are finding that there is a living in this if they do it among other things.

How about with penectomies? I would imagine (and hope!) there's fewer amateurs performing these.

Almost all of them are done by medical professionals. That's tricky, yeah. More tricky. It's sort of major surgery and it's been done by some amateurs. They're fairly good with their surgical techniques. I was actually at one and the guy did a fairly good job but it took a long time and it was a very involved, very slow process. I've heard of only three or four done by cutters in the past and they have left active participation in this.

When you do a penectomy you have to re-route the urethra, yes?

Yes, what I did with this is I knew where I was going with this in 1999 and I contacted my urologist in Hollywood [Florida], an old guy who was just about to retire and I talked to him very carefully and said "in the future I'm going to want the penis removed". And he said "OK, we can do a urethral relocation in the base of the penis".

So how do things like ejaculation and urination work when you've rerouted the urethra and no longer use the penis for them?

With ejaculation, just before you reach the peak, all the fluid is there at the base of the penis, and right before orgasm happens it's the urethra that acts like a rail gun and expels the semen. So when you don't use the penis, there's no force behind it. It just flows out.

What happens to the body parts after removal?

Quite a few [cutters] collect them. They preserve them, they put them in jars. One guy embedded his in plastic and now it's an ornament somewhere. This typically happens when you're in a master/slave dominant/submissive relationship and the submissive gives up his balls to his partner for keepsake. And then you get into this S&M thing where the dominant partner controls and regulates the libido of the submissive. Especially if the submissive is on say androgel where the turnaround time from full sexiness to limp dick is about on the order of a week. The reaction time for the transdermal is very fast. Whereas the injections wear off after two to three weeks. The half life of the testosterone I'm taking is eight days.

You mentioned consumption of body parts in another interview. Is that for real?

It is for real, yes. Some guys do that. Think about the Testy Festy, where they go there and every year there they have concentration of people who are into eating sheep and bull nuts and rocky mountain oysters. I know a few cutters that don't charge anything for their work, the only charge they have is that they get the nuts afterwards.

Is this something that you've tasted?

Yes, as a matter of fact they do taste a little like chicken. Actually I would have to say they taste as much like chicken as they do roast pork. But it all depends on how you cook them. If you cook them in salted butter then they might be saltier than they might otherwise be.

How do you like them cooked?

I went to a cutter's place and he was having an event where he cut a number of guys and I was assisting him there. And what I did is I cooked them up in some butter with some mushrooms. Quite good with a nice red merlot wine.

Cheers to that, Gelding.

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Date: February 20th, 2024 12:40 PM
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(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#47420148)



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Date: June 20th, 2024 3:13 PM
Author: Arrogant Heady Stead

great thread

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#47763942)



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Date: December 13th, 2024 1:22 PM
Author: Arrogant Heady Stead



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5181255&forum_id=2id.#48445042)