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I hate my life and I wake up each morning thinking about killself

Killself and my concrete plan to carry out same is literally...
brilliant newt
  04/21/26
I usually don’t think about killself until about 10am ...
black exciting blood rage
  04/21/26
Wow that's dark. I usually think killself first thing in the...
brilliant newt
  04/21/26
Isn't your wife significantly thinner than you?
charismatic roast beef parlor
  04/21/26
Yes, I am severely overweight. I eat because I hate myself, ...
brilliant newt
  04/21/26
so how is your wife fat?
charismatic roast beef parlor
  04/21/26
You haven't seen her?
coiffed cyan affirmative action ceo
  04/22/26
I don't think she's fat, is she? Or maybe she just looks ski...
charismatic roast beef parlor
  04/22/26
you need Angine de Poitrine, post haste /_\
bright mind-boggling casino goyim
  04/21/26
moar liek Vagine de Vagine
Orchid excitant twinkling uncleanness hospital
  04/21/26
Are there things that you used to enjoy or find rewarding bu...
Walnut School Cafeteria
  04/21/26
I think there was a time that I enjoyed going outside or tal...
brilliant newt
  04/21/26
I definitely think you should explore different hobbies and ...
Walnut School Cafeteria
  04/21/26
I think my posting predates any marital animosity
brilliant newt
  04/21/26
According to AI this is normal. Self awareness peaks in the ...
brilliant newt
  04/21/26
can't trust a man that doesnt think about killing himslef al...
lascivious carnelian laser beams sweet tailpipe
  04/21/26
Yeah, and as pointed out in the OP it isn’t literally ...
brilliant newt
  04/21/26
i think about killing myself for probably a good 8-15% of my...
lascivious carnelian laser beams sweet tailpipe
  04/21/26
Interesting. Is there any external stimulus that tends to br...
brilliant newt
  04/21/26
most of the day it just will start out of nowhere and then l...
lascivious carnelian laser beams sweet tailpipe
  04/21/26
i was drifting off to sleep on the couch this evening and ha...
charismatic roast beef parlor
  04/21/26
sounds rational, but that’s actually a high rate of fa...
brilliant newt
  04/21/26
honestly i think thats totally normal and jsut masculine aut...
lascivious carnelian laser beams sweet tailpipe
  04/21/26
this is normal
Orchid excitant twinkling uncleanness hospital
  04/22/26
ty
lascivious carnelian laser beams sweet tailpipe
  04/22/26
thee you on a dark nite tp
Scarlet ratface cruise ship
  04/21/26
You'll be fine bud. Might want to work on the diet is all.
fear-inspiring dead windowlicker rigpig
  04/21/26
You'd never maek it in L.A.
mahogany indecent organic girlfriend
  04/21/26
Why not, brother?
brilliant newt
  04/21/26
I'm going to level with you. You're in hell, and hell is an...
coiffed cyan affirmative action ceo
  04/22/26
...
electric massive corn cake
  04/22/26
...
coiffed cyan affirmative action ceo
  04/22/26
it's time for us to hike the tour de mont blanc. this will ...
cheese-eating sepia jew mad cow disease
  04/22/26
Motherfucker, do you think he has the money for that!?
coiffed cyan affirmative action ceo
  04/22/26
Let's go, brother.
brilliant newt
  04/22/26
You will not be depressed with the tour de Mont Blanc on you...
cheese-eating sepia jew mad cow disease
  04/23/26
you're killing me, buster
bistre aromatic genital piercing doctorate
  04/22/26
Maybe take up fishing. Its pretty underrated.
irradiated point
  04/22/26
Motherfucker, do you think he has the money for that!?
charismatic roast beef parlor
  04/22/26
...
coiffed cyan affirmative action ceo
  04/22/26
Happened again this morning, brothers.
brilliant newt
  04/23/26
Like every other element of your life, you'll do nothing abo...
coiffed cyan affirmative action ceo
  04/23/26
suicide is pretty cowardly and will fuck up your kids a lot....
Nighttime amber theater stage
  04/23/26
wow tp
Scarlet ratface cruise ship
  04/23/26
Seriously go fishing. Its simple. But really fun. Ancient si...
irradiated point
  04/23/26
Sorry, uhh, "Luke." We let you down ITT. Can you ...
coiffed cyan affirmative action ceo
  04/23/26
i think you're a real piece of shit for criticizing your wif...
emerald cracking menage factory reset button
  04/23/26
Thank you for your honest assessment of my faults, brother. ...
brilliant newt
  04/23/26


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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:13 PM
Author: brilliant newt

Killself and my concrete plan to carry out same is literally the first thought I have each morning. No cap.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833018)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:17 PM
Author: black exciting blood rage

I usually don’t think about killself until about 10am but once I do it’s all I think about for the rest of the day

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833031)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:20 PM
Author: brilliant newt

Wow that's dark. I usually think killself first thing in the morning, then things improve, and it returns when I'm trying to handle my kids in the evening time. I try not talking to my wife as we go to bed.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833035)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 9:45 PM
Author: charismatic roast beef parlor

Isn't your wife significantly thinner than you?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833243)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:10 PM
Author: brilliant newt

Yes, I am severely overweight. I eat because I hate myself, and I hate myself because I eat. It’s a vicious cycle.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833295)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:47 PM
Author: charismatic roast beef parlor

so how is your wife fat?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833397)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 9:37 AM
Author: coiffed cyan affirmative action ceo

You haven't seen her?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833861)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 1:38 PM
Author: charismatic roast beef parlor

I don't think she's fat, is she? Or maybe she just looks skinny compared to disco

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49834362)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:19 PM
Author: bright mind-boggling casino goyim

you need Angine de Poitrine, post haste /_\

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833034)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:25 PM
Author: Orchid excitant twinkling uncleanness hospital

moar liek Vagine de Vagine

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833047)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:20 PM
Author: Walnut School Cafeteria

Are there things that you used to enjoy or find rewarding but no longer do? Or have you never had anything to look forward to?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833036)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 8:25 PM
Author: brilliant newt

I think there was a time that I enjoyed going outside or talking to my wife. I don't do either anymore. I just stay inside all day. I remember there was a time when I was interested in home improvement projects. Lol at that now. There was a time when I wanted to play catch with my sons, but they hate the game and so I came to hate it too. There were some other hobbies too that I absolutely cannot stand now. I would say on a scale of 1 to Anhedonia, I'm safely in the "A zone."

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833048)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 9:05 PM
Author: Walnut School Cafeteria

I definitely think you should explore different hobbies and see if something brings you joy.

Were you already poasting before you started hating your wife? It's possible XO misogyny is exacerbating your resentment or even caused it in the first place.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833166)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 9:43 PM
Author: brilliant newt

I think my posting predates any marital animosity

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833237)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 9:02 PM
Author: brilliant newt

According to AI this is normal. Self awareness peaks in the morning and in the evening.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833157)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:18 PM
Author: lascivious carnelian laser beams sweet tailpipe

can't trust a man that doesnt think about killing himslef all the time tbh

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833319)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:23 PM
Author: brilliant newt

Yeah, and as pointed out in the OP it isn’t literally all the time, it’s just first thing in the mornings and again in the evenings.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833338)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:26 PM
Author: lascivious carnelian laser beams sweet tailpipe

i think about killing myself for probably a good 8-15% of my waking day and I'm over 6ft and have a huge dick with a cr life

when im not thinkig of kms i think about harming others for at least another 15-20% of the day

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833347)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:29 PM
Author: brilliant newt

Interesting. Is there any external stimulus that tends to bring up kms for you? Or does it just hit like a tornado in the springtime, up out of nowhere, but with an all encompassing structure leveling fury that cannot be ignored?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833353)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:49 PM
Author: lascivious carnelian laser beams sweet tailpipe

most of the day it just will start out of nowhere and then loop from there

if homidical theres usually a extrnal stimuli

like last night i had a dream about knocking these 2 people that did something to me clean the fuck out in a mall and slamming htem into a wall or something and then my dad came out of nowhere and was like chill out god is goign to fuck them for you or something

so actually its in my nonwaking life now too

just the senselessness and pontlessness of it all and al this toil for nothing that i see is a huge scam and that no one cares and wont lead to my joy or more young hole etc and how i try to do things righteoulsy but it just seems so dumb to not be a piece of shit and it will start it up again

i think most comes from unfulfilled desires, unmet needs and perceived inustices directed inwardly

seems almost rational tbh

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833404)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:50 PM
Author: charismatic roast beef parlor

i was drifting off to sleep on the couch this evening and had a vivid thought of just grabbing the sharpest kitchen knife and jabbing it straight into my neck

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833408)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:52 PM
Author: brilliant newt

sounds rational, but that’s actually a high rate of failure method. Just go buy a gasoline generator and run it inside an enclosed place with you. Much more effective.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833417)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:55 PM
Author: lascivious carnelian laser beams sweet tailpipe

honestly i think thats totally normal and jsut masculine autistic behavior tbh

i do think others are having these thoughts but dont have control over them as well as i do so i'll ruminate on if theyre having the thoughts for them - when im in public ill see some huge nig at a coffee shop and think hes thining about killing everyone in there so ill look around for shit he might start killing people with and plan how im gonna have to kill this nigger here in the room all in a manner of seconds, i pretty much actively scan every public place for someone doing a m-sui combo and cooridnate how to assess who i would kill basically and how - which is hilarous bc its actually life affirming in some way

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833423)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 8:11 AM
Author: Orchid excitant twinkling uncleanness hospital

this is normal

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833775)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 4:30 PM
Author: lascivious carnelian laser beams sweet tailpipe

ty

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49834835)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:51 PM
Author: Scarlet ratface cruise ship

thee you on a dark nite tp

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833412)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:52 PM
Author: fear-inspiring dead windowlicker rigpig

You'll be fine bud. Might want to work on the diet is all.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833414)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:52 PM
Author: mahogany indecent organic girlfriend

You'd never maek it in L.A.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833415)



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Date: April 21st, 2026 10:53 PM
Author: brilliant newt

Why not, brother?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833418)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 9:44 AM
Author: coiffed cyan affirmative action ceo

I'm going to level with you. You're in hell, and hell is an intelligence test. The potential exit ramp is death. But because you're an unworthy, unwashed mess of a spiritual existence, the drive is to self aggrandize, self preserve, and replicate your evil across the world. Giving in to those pressures ensures further incarnations until you learn to give that shit up

The truth of this is all around you. The entire world is quite literally built on killing in order to preserve yourself until your body gives out from whatever cause du jour and you become the consumed

With death as a literal inevitability, and with the condition for sustaining life being that you must take other life, you're being faced, every day, with whether or not you are moral enough to check out and move on. And yet, in the midst of this existential horror, your concern is about your fat wife. You'll be repeating this experience many more times

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49833884)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:31 PM
Author: electric massive corn cake



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49834508)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:06 PM
Author: coiffed cyan affirmative action ceo



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49834422)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:32 PM
Author: cheese-eating sepia jew mad cow disease

it's time for us to hike the tour de mont blanc. this will give you a refreshing new outlook on life. our wives can stay in chamonix while we complete the trek.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49834516)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:44 PM
Author: coiffed cyan affirmative action ceo

Motherfucker, do you think he has the money for that!?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49834553)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 3:12 PM
Author: brilliant newt

Let's go, brother.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49834651)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:07 PM
Author: cheese-eating sepia jew mad cow disease

You will not be depressed with the tour de Mont Blanc on your plate

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49838500)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:47 PM
Author: bistre aromatic genital piercing doctorate

you're killing me, buster

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49834569)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:53 PM
Author: irradiated point

Maybe take up fishing. Its pretty underrated.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49834586)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:54 PM
Author: charismatic roast beef parlor

Motherfucker, do you think he has the money for that!?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49834590)



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Date: April 22nd, 2026 2:55 PM
Author: coiffed cyan affirmative action ceo



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49834599)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 7:39 AM
Author: brilliant newt

Happened again this morning, brothers.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49836449)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 7:54 AM
Author: coiffed cyan affirmative action ceo

Like every other element of your life, you'll do nothing about it

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49836461)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:11 AM
Author: Nighttime amber theater stage

suicide is pretty cowardly and will fuck up your kids a lot. at least give one of your sons agency and have him shoot you

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49836476)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:52 PM
Author: Scarlet ratface cruise ship

wow tp

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49838612)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 9:20 PM
Author: irradiated point

Seriously go fishing. Its simple. But really fun. Ancient simple pleasure. Low barrier to entry. Out in nature which is proven to combat "depression" (some kike invented pathology)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49838718)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:19 PM
Author: coiffed cyan affirmative action ceo

Sorry, uhh, "Luke." We let you down ITT. Can you tell us about some of the thoughts and methods that have come to mind?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49838539)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:21 PM
Author: emerald cracking menage factory reset button

i think you're a real piece of shit for criticizing your wife's body after she bore you four children and you ate yourself into morbid obesity

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49838542)



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Date: April 23rd, 2026 8:44 PM
Author: brilliant newt

Thank you for your honest assessment of my faults, brother. I will internalize them and chew on the bile as it comes up.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5859213&forum_id=2id.#49838586)