I had a nice apartment in a very prestigious part of town. It was kind of small, true, but if you looked out the window in the right place, you could catch a glimpse of [prestigious thing to have a view of]. On weekends, I got a huge kick out of calling up old friends from HS and asking them to meet me "by my place". When they asked where that was, I told them to meet me at the corner of [prestigious street] and [prestigious street], which was a three block walk for me.

On weekdays, I woke up every morning at 7, showered, threw on my suit, put on DEM GUCCI SHOES, and hailed a cab to work. Yeah, I took a cab every day, even though there were convenient public transit options. I could afford to do that. Hell, once I got an offer, it would be reimbursable.

Over the summer, I bought more and more nice clothes. Once, after getting a new credit card from my parents, I went to buy some more shoes. At checkout, I realized that I had forgotten to sign the back of the card. I had to show ID. All I had with me was my law school student idea, so I had to pull it out and drop the H bomb, silently.

Sometimes, on weekends, mother would visit. I'd hop out of my place and hop into the leather seats of her striver automobile. I wasn't a fan of her decision to get it; it decreased my inheritance by tens of thousands of dollars. I didn't think she needed all of the fancy electronic shit embedded in the cab. But, for now, it was legally her money. I comforted myself with the thought that, next year, I would be able to afford a car, even if I'd never actually buy one. But I could and that's what mattered.

My favorite times were when mother and I went condo shopping. The deal was, her and dad would buy a condo downtown (close to work) for me to live in while working BigLaw. In exchange, I would promise to use my BigLaw salary to help them out in case of a crisis. My parents were obsessed with staying liquid; they liked the idea of being able to make any problem go away by writing a big check. The idea of putting their assets into something that required transaction costs to get rid of (such as real estate) terrified them. Only with the promise of a BigLaw money-making son having their back would they agree to shell out on a prime place.

I was going to hold a big house warming party for that condo, inviting as many old friends as I could. They'd see, plainly, that I had made it. I'd adopt a cat too, and let him live the good life along with me.

My life, in short, was set. I was this close to finally having the big income of my dreams, and everything that went along with it.

Then, I got no-offered.

Everything was lost. No longer could I afford to live in a prestigious urban area. I will instead be living in the room I grew up in, in boring suburban striver town. No longer will I casually make impulse luxury purchases; all I'll have left are the relics of a time when I could spend more freely, which if I'm lucky I can spin into amusing internet memes. And, of course, no condo. No bragging to old friends. No kitteh.

This is why I cry.

Perhaps this post will make you hate me, perhaps it will make you understand me. But I just felt like I had to make it to get this weight off my chest.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14212769)

this one was from the heart

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14212915)

He should be upset. It's normal to be upset.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#18621309)

It's not easy being Estrada

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14212985)

He's being no-offered because ITE.

It's completely normal for unemployed people to be depressed. A study showed that losing a job for men was equivalent psychologically to divorce. It hurts. It's an area that some ppl care a lot about and they feel like they erred big time. Of course, he should be upset. It's normal. It would be abnormal not to be upset.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#18621308)

Fucking choke on your own vomit and die you piece of shit.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14212867)

HTH.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213649)

UGH

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#19214898)

Just enjoy the VIP lifestyle for now and make the most of your free time.

P.S.

OFS on DEM GUCCI SHOES OFS YNY OFS YNY

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14212893)

I like these ones:

http://www.cheapairshoes.com/Upfiles/Mens%20Gucci%20Sneakers%20-85.jpg

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14212924)

If I want dress shoes, I'll see Mr. Gucci. If I want sneakers, I'll see Mr. Nike or Mr. Adidas.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213024)

because you based your outsized ego on the ephemeral and the fleeting without ever actually respecting yourself.

because if you had half a set of balls you would go out and take what you want.

because no real doors are closed to you except in your imagination.

because i know tons of people at worse schools who have already manned up and figured it out.

because i know others who will figure it out.

there is nothing wrong with you except a sense of entitlement and a weakness of character and your ceaseless wallowing and decision to ignore constructive advice fills me with contempt.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14212972)

i got a norman bates vibe reading that.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213105)

What sucks about you're situation isn't what "life has taken from you." What sucks about you're situation is what you are too weak and scared to take from life.

Sorry bro. Sack the fuck up and start looking past the past.

I personally know a dumb, ugly latina cunt with a spic accent who was in the bottom 10% at GW, and got V10 within 4 years of graduating law school. She's stupid as shit, unattractive, and doesn't know anybody. She just worked very hard at her doc review job, and became invaluable to the point where the firm had to hire her.

Again, SACK THE FUCK UP, and show some goddamn hustle. Whining on XOXO isn't helping you at all.

For what it's worth, I ate 700 calories so far today.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213130)

Of course, another thing that sucks about my situation is that many of the friends I once felt superior to -- the ones who make 35-45k in entry level jobs with just their BA -- now are much better off than I am.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213171)

So much of your ego is tied into things that should have been. Tie it up to things you will make happen because you are an ALPHA with BIG NUTS.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213223)

GTFO faggot. You honestly don't know shit about the practice of law.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213401)

I worked for an utterly mediocre solo from Fordham in NYC for 3 years who pulled $700k MINIMUM doing nothing but niche admiralty work.

I never said that MOST lawyers can make $500k solo. I said ESTRADA can make $500k solo if he puts his heart and soul into it. I stand by my statement.

You are an unreasonable and confrontational faggot troll. Suck on a dick and GTFO.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213485)

You are the second worst poaster on xoxo.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213626)

I was trying to be nice to a FRIEND who was trying (poorly) to help. Jeez. You guys don't have to ruin it.

We might throw off his diet if we don't play along with his BS.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213226)

I still like you

=(

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213272)

You gotta chill the fuck out bro. You have a long, successful career in front of you if you don't wallow in your depression. Did you go see that therapist?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213294)

With HLS, you have a much better chance than most to do this. I understand that the easy way is foreclosed to you, but you are in a position to attain your dream in a couple of years if you work very hard and play your cards right.

Maybe I come across overly optimistic here, but if it really is a dream, and you really do want this, why not stop sulking, and start planning how you'll get biglaw 5 years from now?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213436)

but I'mma not gonna be on gchat for another hour or so. You can always email.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213241)

To be fair, I used to not feel sorry for you because you had a job, but since being laid off I have come to see you as a brother.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213354)

BTW. It was a shit job anyway. I've worked in 3 different corporate environments, and 5 white collar environments my entire life. That was by far the worst place. The only worse outcome for me would have been that they wanted me to stay in mumblefuck, midwest for as long as possible.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213621)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213637)

You enjoyed your summer too much; you were startled and weakened by this honor. You became attached to something that wasn't real, and wasn't even yours yet. As a result, you became even more awkward and timid around people in your firm. You were given a chance to put it all on the line, and give it your best, but you failed, because you were too afraid of failure itself.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#14213655)

Start going to the gym, focus on losing your kermit voice, stop being a whiny little bitch, and most importantly stop posting on xoxo or limit yourself drastically because you need to work on your IRL persona.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=1232142&forum_id=2#15453279)