None of these people know im non white, at least most of them dont since there is that distance of just being online acquaintances/gamers, none think to ask, maybe some know or realize through context clues or being able to intuit certain accent irregularities (only locals) noone has made a point of it it or asked explicitly

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=es2lxQExU3g

not quite sure why I do this? the narcissistic injury of simply admitting it/being 'known' is insurmountable for my tiny colonized brain. I just cant relax unless im "neutral" if that makes sense? I just want to fit in.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5681990&forum_id=2#48667828)