On one hand, all things considered, this is a good deal for sex (dollar-wise) no matter who you are.

On the other hand, why the fuck was she so evasive about what she was after, and felt like she was massively buttering me up... all for a measly hundred?

Finally, I feel this is the nail in the coffin shattering any residual respect I had for myself. I literally just paid for sex. Not only am I no longer attractive to college girls and will likely never get them for free again (I know this lone event isn't indicative on a rational basis since we met on SA, duh, but emotionally it feels this way). But also I wasted MY youth, MY time in college having never banged girls like this and now I'm a semi-washed up old man paying them for pity sex or something. Apparently it was so easy to fuck her that she was relating the times she fucked guys who simply asked her a lot. But I'm not even on THAT level, and never was. Soon I'll be a full blown perv without a family and addicted to shallow encounters with disease infested whores.

Fuck my life

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31533586)

https://www.xoxohth.com/thread.php?thread_id=2788553&mc=227&forum_id=2#27162328

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#49921651)

Have you tried being confident and lifting weights?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31533741)

also what do you think it is that makes people like me fundamentally unattractive in a way that being confident and lifting weights will never solve? any new insights into this? pleas share if you have.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31533750)

Stop telling yourself this shit

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31535393)

Low confidence is also closely related to real deficiencies like poor social skills that would need to be fixed first

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31533776)

yeah it's amazing that the ability to speak fluently to strangers about random shit is the defining line between hot nubile girls consistently wanting to be around you and rub their private parts with you from puberty onward, and having no meaningful human contact whatsoever for decades while you are at your physical horniest.

fuck this

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31533784)

you have to imagine it as though they can smell it on you. (they sort of can.) every time a woman senses that her view of you matters to you, that in order for you to respect yourself you have to get respect from her, every time that happens she LOSES respect for you.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31533819)

undesirable things

having confidence to be something wholly undesirable to nubile sex kittens is really nothing to be proud about at all

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31533840)

they are out there doing these things, even though when i was their age i was a mega-nerd in the library studying. didn't know these things existed outside the confines of porn.

and no, it's not all with this mythical chad. it's within certain communities under varied contexts, but these were highly identifiable and perhaps exploitable if i had opened my eyes, actually looked around without fear of seeing something that would make me uncomfortable, went out there and TRIED

but i didn't, and this latter realization sucks the most

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31533811)

i had a girlfriend this spring who had done SA. definitely way more manipulative and way more experienced than me. also an absolute travesty of a human being and not smart to boot

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31533843)

how did you meet her, what do you think attracted her to you, and what were her motivations to do SA and then to switch to something else?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31533850)

met on Tinder. i think her main issue was that she wasn't hot enough to get a lot of money on SA.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31533854)

http://imgur.com/a/vcO8h

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31537327)

The thing is, I wouldn't care if I were older and had already fucked a lot of girls like her in my prime. But I never did, and now I'm losing my virginity so to speak to a hooker. That's what makes it bad, if that makes sense.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31534739)

Also, everything about OP's interaction with this girl implies that her tolerance level is phenomenal.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31535368)

i'd shamelessly pay the industry standard $500 for what you got. (and she's correct, that's what most SA chicks have quoted me).

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31534436)

You shouldn't be so hard on yourself. You put yourself in a pit that is hard to come out of, even if you are a Chad. Better option would be just to stay in there when you're dealing with these types of situations.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31534715)

I initially asked, several times, and she made it seem like she didn't want anything until the very end.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31534735)

She was playing the GFE game, bro.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31534740)

I'm still going with the theory that she gets off on making dweeb guys catch feelings for her and then soliciting a donation

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31534786)

She went on a date with you and fucked you with the expectation you would pay her for it. End of story.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31537577)

It's insane that you think you got taken advantage here when you got a lengthy fuckfest with a young (and attractive sounding chick) for less than a lot of beta professional bros blow on dates with match.com shrews who "didn't feel a spark." If anyone got taken advantage of it's the girl, but she wouldn't have done it without money upfront unless she enjoyed it so it sounds like she got a good deal too.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31534854)

I think it's just the versimillitude of the GFE triggering the fact that I had no concept of having sex when I was her age, thus feeling waves of regrets and insecurities. None of my depressive rants have anything to do with the girl ultimately, just my broken sad life

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31534881)

the op is an idiot

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31538618)

What's more, she likes sex-- just not with you. Some of that money, inevitably, is going to cosmetics and clothes so she can look good to attract the man she actually wants to have sex with. You are funding her pursuit of chad, who will fuck her for free as much as he likes (until he gets bored and moves on to the next girl).

The economics of the sexual market are absolutely brutal.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31535001)

Proceeding to kill myself now

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31535045)

If we turn back the clock 70 years to when dating was much more assortive and everyone had fewer partners (5s dating 5s, 6s with 6s), OP wasn't going to bang this girl at all.

Now, for a minor expense, he gets to punch above his weight. Those economics are great for him, not brutal.

The real cost of this cartoon world is that when a 5-bro actually wants to settle down with a 5-chick, she's going to have been blown out by 7-bros and will never be satisfied with the 5-bro.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31541120)

2) No, just be happy you had an awesome experience. If I were you I'd call her back and try to get more of that.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31537128)

2. Right, because your perspective is fucked.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31537314)

you're not saying anything new :/

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31537350)

I'm actually a pretty happy person, lost my virginity in HS like a normal person, and if I was in OP's situation would be happy and would have been nice to the girl.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31537332)

http://imgur.com/a/vcO8h

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31537325)

120

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31538626)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31539060)

1. thinking you are above paying for it. no one is above paying for it in the right circumstances.

2. posting this shitty as flame.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31539951)

knew girls like her existed, even interacted with them occasionally, but really shattered my perception of the world to have one naked in my bed telling me about all the organic college guys she fucked who were assertive enough to ask twice.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3370013&forum_id=2Vannesa#31541149)