I feel terrible for it because I know it's not just a harmless fantasy, it started out as me seeking older porn and I fell into this niche rabbit hole by starting to watch gay porn made in Eastern Europe in the 1990s.. it fulfils this niche craving in the moment, but god do I feel sick. I'm pretty sure none of those men wanted to be there and just did it for the money, I'm sure they were probably exploited because they desperately needed that money, but I still watch it. I'm such a hypocrite, and worst of all is I want to be against it so badly and I say that I am and stand against it, but I still come back to watch it because I like the material. I've looked into it so many times as to why it's morally terrible, I've read into the circumstances and still. I want to be against this so badly, it goes against my morals and I feel so sick I could throw up. The worst part is I'm from the West and I'm middle class so I'm sure it's exploitation and poverty porn in every sense of the word. I guess it's technically not illegal

material, but I feel so terrible inside.

It makes me want to die with how bad I feel over it, I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel so ashamed.

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