part of me feels ancient - not because i'm somehow superior to others, but because i'm spent a tremendous amount of time and energy delving into some pretty gnarly aspects about human nature and the world in general

part feels my age or older - i run "hot" where i'm constantly in analytic mode, which puts substantial somatic pressure on my body. and i can't lose weight

part of me feels really young - with a non-redemptive worldview, i no longer expect to be redeemed or saved in the future, which otherwise contributes substantially to aging when hopes for that stuff don't materialize. so i can live much more in the moment

hbu?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5885965&forum_id=2~#50022627)